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sometimes I feel like such a failure...

Tuesday, January 07, 2014

Not even a week into the New Year and my resolutions went out the window. It has been bitter cold here in MN and so I have not wanted to go to the gym. In addition to that, I watch my 2 1/2 year old grandson, who is a handful. He is into everything and so he has to be watched constantly, that means there is no rest when for me when he is here. He also loves to wrestle and for such a little person he sure is rough, but we have so much fun. When he gets a bit too energetic I set up the mini trampoline for him to jump on. That keeps him busy and happy.

However, I am noticing that when I watch him I find myself baking and then eating what I baked. For instance, the other day I baked some caramel rolls. I was craving a good caramel roll for months. My daughter made some a couple weeks ago, but she made caramel doorstops and that did not take away my craving. I told her I help her with her technique to make them better and her response was, "I like them just fine the way they are." She still does not want to listen to any of my advice.

Part of my frustration is she is still keeping that wall up that she had in her wilder days when she was determined to do her own thing even though she was making some terrible choices. Some of those choices are now resurfacing and she is realizing the consequences did not go away even though she ignored the issues. It is hard as a parent to see these things happen and not say "I told you what would happen if you do not deal with it.” The other part of my frustration is I see me in her.

But back to the caramel rolls. It was a super cold day and I thought what it treat it would be to make some caramel rolls. I found a very "naughty" recipe ~ lots of butter and sugar. The recipe made 15 rolls. When I took the time to track my food for the day, I realized that I ate about 9 of them. 9 = 2,853 calories and I did not even look at the grams of fat; so much for my resolve to eat less sugar and fat. I did not even last a week.

So, now I am telling myself, "I told you that would happen if you made the rolls." I knew I would overeat if I made them because I was craving them for so long. The good news is I am back on the road to recovery. The latest issue of Fitness came yesterday and there is an article with motivational tips from Olympians. Here is what Lolo Jones had to say about bouncing back from a cheat day, "Keep a slip-up in check by focusing on the finish line you're working toward. ... "A failure isn't a failure if it prepares you for success tomorrow.""

That day did not end my journey toward my goal weight and better eating habits. I need to find better ways to deal with my frustration. Eating junk only makes the situation worse. It is time to focus on the things that will are going to help me reach my goals. Here's to a better tomorrow.
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  • LIV2RIDE
    Just know that you aren't alone. We have all been in that same position. Some of us make the exact same decision you did. So you aren't a failure by any stretch of the imagination. Sending lots of love and understanding your way.
    2275 days ago
  • MOTHEPRO
    You're not a failure. Just make better choices today. emoticon
    2276 days ago
  • RDARLING
    I really liked that last quote you had from Lolo Jones, "A failure isn't a failure if it prepares you for success tomorrow."
    Think about that. You know what you did to detrail your plans and you admitted the failure. Those are important and necessary steps to success.

    I agree with the many other comments. Today is a clean slate, tomorrow is a new day.

    You can do it!
    2276 days ago
  • YOYOSTOP
    I think we all have those days were we just can not resit temptation, the good thing is you acknowledge it and are ready to move on. Yesterday is behind you, leave it there and move forward. Being a parent is not easy, and our children can not learn from the mistakes we made,, they will make their own and hopefully learn from them as they mature, and some take longer than others to grow up and become responsible adults. Lots of prayer helps! Have a better Tuesday.
    2276 days ago
  • RUNNINGVEGANMOM
    The fact that you acknowledged your weak moment and moved on and got right back on track proves that you're NOT a failure! Every moment of every day is a chance to start over with a clean slate. emoticon
    2276 days ago
  • WILEE323
    You aren't a failure, just human! We all slip up from time to time.
    2276 days ago
  • no profile photo CD14277958
    Today is another chance to make healthy choices. We all have days like that. Be kind to yourself!
    2276 days ago
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