sometimes I feel like such a failure...
Tuesday, January 07, 2014
Not even a week into the New Year and my resolutions went out the window. It has been bitter cold here in MN and so I have not wanted to go to the gym. In addition to that, I watch my 2 1/2 year old grandson, who is a handful. He is into everything and so he has to be watched constantly, that means there is no rest when for me when he is here. He also loves to wrestle and for such a little person he sure is rough, but we have so much fun. When he gets a bit too energetic I set up the mini trampoline for him to jump on. That keeps him busy and happy.
However, I am noticing that when I watch him I find myself baking and then eating what I baked. For instance, the other day I baked some caramel rolls. I was craving a good caramel roll for months. My daughter made some a couple weeks ago, but she made caramel doorstops and that did not take away my craving. I told her I help her with her technique to make them better and her response was, "I like them just fine the way they are." She still does not want to listen to any of my advice.
Part of my frustration is she is still keeping that wall up that she had in her wilder days when she was determined to do her own thing even though she was making some terrible choices. Some of those choices are now resurfacing and she is realizing the consequences did not go away even though she ignored the issues. It is hard as a parent to see these things happen and not say "I told you what would happen if you do not deal with it.” The other part of my frustration is I see me in her.
But back to the caramel rolls. It was a super cold day and I thought what it treat it would be to make some caramel rolls. I found a very "naughty" recipe ~ lots of butter and sugar. The recipe made 15 rolls. When I took the time to track my food for the day, I realized that I ate about 9 of them. 9 = 2,853 calories and I did not even look at the grams of fat; so much for my resolve to eat less sugar and fat. I did not even last a week.
So, now I am telling myself, "I told you that would happen if you made the rolls." I knew I would overeat if I made them because I was craving them for so long. The good news is I am back on the road to recovery. The latest issue of Fitness came yesterday and there is an article with motivational tips from Olympians. Here is what Lolo Jones had to say about bouncing back from a cheat day, "Keep a slip-up in check by focusing on the finish line you're working toward. ... "A failure isn't a failure if it prepares you for success tomorrow.""
That day did not end my journey toward my goal weight and better eating habits. I need to find better ways to deal with my frustration. Eating junk only makes the situation worse. It is time to focus on the things that will are going to help me reach my goals. Here's to a better tomorrow.