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Phoenix Rising

Sunday, January 05, 2014

I'm sitting here Sunday night - my first day back to being AF in a while and reflecting on a lot of things. I came across this blog that spoke about instances of suffering and the questioning of 'why' and it's simply what I needed to hear/read right now... here's the link if you'd like to read it: myemail.constantcontact.

On Friday at work - I felt a glimpse of my passion and spark again ... but it faded away ... in my reflections over the weekend. I used the excuse that THIS was the last weekend of wallowing before I kicked my butt into gear again and set my focus on healing myself. I have felt all over the place with ideas, thoughts, wants and wishes. There are so many things I would like to accomplish in so many areas of my life - but I know I have to take it one step at a time.

I know that change is necessary and that I need to stop the talk and walk the walk! I need to shift my focus on the inner workings of my soul - that have led me to the emotional eating and drinking. I need to start taking care of MYSELF again - despite all that my kids are going through.

So my plan for this week is to wake up and workout right away ... instead of doing my usual routine of reading affirmations, blogging, etc., - I'm going to get straight into action and then with the time I have left I can do some of that as I drink a nice healthy protein shake.

Then at work - I am going to remain focused and on task. My concentration has been so 'off' that I've not been as productive as I usually am and January is a high gear month for me as I prepare to put together our 2013 annual report - a huge project.

I need to get back to my networking - and plan on attending my chapter meeting this Thursday. I had been putting them off 'in case' things happened at home, but let's face it - they happen anyway and I need this outlet. The topic this week is also perfect for a lot of what I'm seeking to do in getting focused again - the speaker is Pierette Raymond - her website is awesome
and I can't wait to hear her speak (Simplify Your Life for Maximum Results). With my association, I also put my name forth to help out at the Canada District Level for 2014/2015 (I'm currently helping out at my local chapter level as webmaster this year).

I'm also going to get out to a Zumba Class this coming Sunday. I have asked my gf to join me. In this area - I have an interest in perhaps pursuing another form of workout that I did gosh maybe 25 years ago - Jazzercise (which is similar to Zumba in that it's kind of dance moves). I loved it and they don't have any franchises around here so I'm thinking this might be something I can pursue. I plan on getting some DVDs and trying out some workouts and perhaps a long term goal will be to become a Jazzercise instructor here in my city.

My goals for health will be achieved if I can focus on some very specific goals and while doing some of this 'self-care' stuff - I will better be able to manage the stress in my life. I will also be providing a role model for my girls to show them that yes - I too have a hard time sometimes and feel depressed and 'don't feel like doing anything' - but you have to PUSH yourself to do so.

I need to stop focusing on the alcohol issue too. It's been driving me to drink more I think. I blog on Wordpress and Soberistas about my journey in this respect but perhaps I need to step back a bit from that - in order to focus my attention on some of the positive things I'm going after.

It's all about shifting perspectives. I have my physical tomorrow morning at 10am. I'm curious to see what the blood work will say. I know my weight will be up as I have been eating like there's no tomorrow the past few days. But it's going to be my starting point, NO - my TURNING point! I will talk to them about my 'mood' and highs/lows and while I do not like the idea of medication, perhaps I may need some to keep me strong as I get through this hurdle - we'll see. I know I'd prefer to just stick with the natural anti-depressants like working out more regularly, eating well and taking my supplements.

So here's to the beginning of a new week. Here's to the FIRST Sunday of 2014 and to a great week ahead!
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  • KIPPER15
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    1995 days ago
    You're the best emoticon
    1995 days ago
    you sound so healthy to me, this is going to be a great year for you!!!!!!!
    bizi happy new year! emoticon
    1995 days ago
    emoticon I never knew how you got up to listen to affirmations! I would always choose sleep- or get the workout in. BUT it is one of those choices that makes me see how different we all are as in - well I have to admit I have clicked on some of the links you send but I can't even read the whole thing- I mean I am able to but am unable to get into listening to motivators.
    It seems to me that you are striving for and finding balance and what works for you!
    I am an action speaks louder than words kind of person and do not own a single self help book-
    IMO it is my life and no one can tell me how to live it.
    so I really like your idea of getting the morning workout in- I think you will see big results from that! emoticon
    1995 days ago
    Good luck with your physical tomorrow. I'm glad you've found ways to get out. Good luck too with your Annual Report at work.

    1996 days ago
    You can do it Helene! Great idea on working out first thing in the AM. It will give you more energy and keep you focused! Good luck at your physical and in the beginning of the new week!!!

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    1996 days ago
    Good luck tomorrow with your physical. And wishing you blessings as you tackle your goals for the year.

    1996 days ago
    You drew your line in the sand so please, stick to it. This is for you, your life, your health and the way you need it to be so you can be a success!
    1996 days ago
    I'm glad to hear you are making some headway and some great plans to take care of yourself, my dear friend.
    I ADORED Prozac, have been on it twice and cannot say enough good things about it (for me, anyway- except for the sexual effect- as in lack of drive- which didn't bother me but did bother my dear man).
    Keep focusing on the positives!
    1996 days ago
    I took prozac for a couple of weeks when I had depression and although it certainly did improve my mood I felt a bit lifeless and I actually preferred depression, although mine wasn't life threatening. I certainly wouldn't hesitate to try medication should the need arise. You can always stop it if you don't like the results. If it helps you I wouldn't feel bad about using it or feel like you're weak for going that route.

    Whatever works!


    1996 days ago
    Awesome blog! Lots going on there - you are such a go getter and such a great writer! If you get a chance have a look at my blog for today - I think it might help even if it's just a little bit. emoticon
    1996 days ago
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