Hey there SparkFriends.
Thanks for your constant support and asking about how I was doing. With the busy-ness of the holidays I simply didn't log in.
And I ate and ate and ate and ate...
And then I'm not surprised, got sick...
I opted to erase my old weight-loss beginning date and end date and start my tracker over. I also decided to re-start my log-in streak. Erase the old, quit looking back at the messes I've made and simply move forward.
For the new habits though, I think I sort of know what quitting-smokers go through. My mother-in-law quit smoking years ago, and I remember her saying she missed having her cigarette with her morning coffee - it was simply habit. Tonight after dinner I was "ravished" and began looking around the kitchen until I asked my stomach if it was hungry and it told me "No, as the matter of fact I am NOT hungry. I had plenty of healthy food to eat during dinner, so please do not feed me anything else." (Yes, I have discussions with various parts of my body). So I made a cup of tea and got the heck outta there.
I turn 43 next week and am farther from my goal than I was 3 years ago. The year in review says that I opted to eat when I had bad news about my father's health (Alzheimer's), opted to eat when I had job (or lack-of-job-hours) stress, opted to eat when I felt like I couldn't talk to anyone about what was bothering me (you name it). So I knew not to eat to deal with my worries and stress, but I ate anyway.
So Blessed2BMe said she is focusing on "commitment" this year, which I really like. So thank you, SparkFriend, for this statement. What an important word that is.
I realize I rarely follow through to the very end with my grand plans. And my grand plan has been to lose 55 (now 60) pounds. I've gotten to -27 then got cocky and started eating again and going back to my old (and bad) habits. And I've plumped up.
This is a difficult journey. I know I've written this before and I know it to be true. I just have to make myself THINK and make it a conscientious effort every time I go to eat. And holy SCHNIKES I had a lot of chances to think in 2013...
So no "resolving" to do anything. One day at a time. Tomorrow, eat right (track it) and exercise (track it). I already have plans for what to eat for breakfast and what exercise I'll do. I have decided to make tomorrow a commitment to be good to me.
And that starts with sleep!