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Janurary 1, 2014

Wednesday, January 01, 2014

I am so disappointed in myself. I let myself get right back to where I was weight wise when I first joined SP in 2009.

It really sunk in when I saw these pictures we took last night.

Okay, I'm not exactly back where I started, but I'm almost there.

I tried to loose weight last summer/fall when I was training for the half marathons during that time. I saw the photo/video of me crossing the finish line. It wasn't good. I was honestly embarrassed by them.

I'm tired of being embarrassed by how I look.

I was able to fix it before, but I just can't seem to find the way to do it.

So right now I'm not worrying about how I'm going to do it - how I'm going to loose all this weight.

Instead, I'm focusing on what I KNOW I need to do today.
Drink More Water - I'm already up to 4 cups and it's not even noon here yet.
Drink Less Coffee - I haven't had any so far today. I may have one, since I'm ahead on my water already
Eat More Freggies - I had an asian pear for breakfast. And some veggies cooked into the home made turkey soup I had for lunch.
Move More - Hubby and I took the dogs for a walk. I was cut very short - our littlest dog was way too cold to walk so we had to turn around. But we got out there and went.

So far so good.

The plan for the rest of today?
Drink at least 4 more glasses of water
Have another bowl of soup
Focus on Freggies with my supper

Later tonight I'm going to start to think about what I did today, and what the plan is to do better tomorrow.

I know to see any progress on the scale I really need to move more, but it's all progress. I won't start out running miles and miles - it's been almost 4 months since I've run. I've been sick - shingles that would not go away, and now just recovering from a cold. But I really need to start to push again soon.
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    over the past 2 years i gained some weight back. i was kind of depressed and i am also concerned that id i dont start losing soon my coat wont fit the rest of the winter. i have had this coat for about 13 years so i am in danger of hittin a new high weight if i dont get my weigh under control. also i had to buy a few pair of pants a larger size..yijes. it is very motivating to get myseld back on track.
    1603 days ago
    Totally hear you on feeling embarrassed, but you know what to do and I know you can do it!!! One choice at a time!
    1603 days ago
    Gook luck staying motivated!
    Focus on your goals and keep a positive attitude.
    Negative self-talk must be stopped. We would never say to someone else the negative things we say to ourselves
    I check my goal board throughout the day to try and stay focused.
    Forgive yourself for past "failures"; they do not determine future success.

    1604 days ago
  • JUSTME29
    Today is a brand new day. I think we all give it more weight because it also happens to be the beginning of a new year - but the truth is it's just another day. If we can do well today and better tomorrow, we are making progress.
    1604 days ago
    I really like how you are able to switch the focus to today. That has always been one of my challenges since I have a tendency to beat myself up about the past or worry about the future way too much. And I will be stealing your term "freggies" from now on! I also agree with Motherof3Things -- you look lovely! Be gentle with yourself. :)
    1604 days ago
    I loved reading your blog. I am right where you are. I almost gained back all of my weight. I am actually drinking water while I am reading this. Water is my biggest issue. I saw pictures of myself from last night and on Christmas and was very disappointed I had let myself get there. I will be utilizing more of the SP website to help with my motivation. And just so you know the picture in this blog is beautiful. You look happy.
    1604 days ago
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