no one said life would be easy
Monday, December 30, 2013
So, I went to the gym Friday and Saturday night. Did cardio and a little strength training. I've been feeling tired lately and I forced myself to go and workout hoping it would boost my energy a bit. My doctor switched my anxiety medication about 3 months ago and I've gained over 20 lbs since then. I have NEVER been this heavy. I decided to step on the scale Friday morning and I was SHOCKED when I saw the number on the scale. I figured I had gained a couple of pounds but not THAT much.
The last couple of months have been so stressful, with my daughter having leukemia, and having to have to drop out of school, I have been stress eating BIG time.
So much has changed, and with the year coming to an end, I think about how much has changed over the course of a year. You don't realize who your true friends are until there isn't anyone around any more. My phone doesn't ring any more. No text messages like before. Forgotten, alone, and going through probably the roughest time in my life, EVER.
I don't think I have felt more alone than I have the past two months. I always think to myself, I need to make my children's childhood the best they could ever have. Especially now more than ever. But how is that possible with my youngest being sick and my emotions being hard to control? What is a mother to do? I try watching funny movies just to laugh once in a while because I am having a difficult time finding joy in anything any more.
Hopefully I will keep pushing to do the elliptical every day or at least 5 days a week, and incorporate ST more each week.