mistakes, decisions, consequences,
Sunday, December 22, 2013
No word today on my SIL, my brother hasn't called or messaged me and no one else in the family has either. I talked to him yesterday and cant seem to make him understand the seriousness of the mistake that was made in the treatment by the hospital staff.
Cant seem to make him understand that HE needs to stand up and voice his concern and insist on talking to the doctor and finding out why this happened and who is responsible and maybe even getting her moved for better treatment.
Also cant seem to make him see that praying isn't the only decision to be made here and that he needs to see that he has a leg to stand on, he acts as though he is at the mercy of the hospital workers and has to go along with them.
I would have already contacted an attorney and be making it known to them that I intended to hold someone responsible, I would also already be asking for nursing notes, etc.
Only a few days to go. And all the planning, prepping, spending, buying, wrapping, etc will come to be.
Seems pretty crazy when I sit and look at it. My mom cooks this huge meal, my sister and I both cook huge amounts of food. We convene and we eat, and we get so full we get sick, then we eat more later, then we have tons of food still left over.
I say every year I will not take part, and last year, I didn't. Last year was the smartest I ever played it.
I ate very little and the foods I did eat, were mostly of the turkey and veggie kind.
I didn't indulge in desserts and starches galore.
I can only hope to try hard to do the same this year.
So far, I haven't been able to stay out of the candy. While I haven't over indulged, I have sampled, and sampled some more.
But today it will all be gone. It will all be delivered and out of the house and I will be happy about that.
I haven't gotten on the scale in close to 2 weeks, I don't have to because I know I have gained, I can tell by my clothes.
I can feel it and see it.
and still have a week to deal with, getting thru the cooking and eating and leftovers, etc.
and forget walking, I haven't been in over a week. Rain and wind, I just cant deal with.
But things cannot continue on down this same path.
I have to get back to that place, that RIGHT place, that place in my head and in my body, in my recovery of myself.
As for the alcohol I purchased on Friday night, I called the store and they will let me return it with the receipt.
both are unopened and both are going back tomorrow.
I decided this while beating myself up for buying it.
It is wrong of me to give alcohol as a gift to someone who might also be dealing with some issues, just as its wrong of me to make and give out candy and cookies to others, when I, myself tell everyone how bad sugar is for the body.
I have made some big mistakes and some bad decisions lately, regarding food. and I can and will return the alcohol. What possessed me to buy it in the first place?
I had not had a drink in around a month.
the desire to have a good time or to release some pent up frustrations of not having had a good time, or stress from over eating, lack of exercise, a momentary lapse in judgement?
I don't know, but I know this, its going back, those two bottles alone are well over 30 dollars,
So, tomorrow I am off to the liquor store to return the unopened and un wanted bottles.
I will be glad to rid my home of them and move on.
Why is it, I often wonder, we set dates to BEGIN new lifestyles or diets or exercise programs or whatever other life changes we decide to make.
Why do we say, Monday, I am going to begin this, or I will have one last hooray and then I will start.
I think the time to do something is the moment it enters the mind to do it.
I would take the liquor back today if they were open on Sunday.
But the choice is made, its going back, I will NOT indulge in those calories, and I will not offer that choice to anyone else.
Yes, I see the errors I have made, the poor decisions. I stumbled, but luckily I caught myself before I fell.
So, decision made, today, I will get rid of the candy, and this time next year, I will with any luck, be candy free, alcohol free, and hopefully back on the right path to good health, weight loss and hopefully these added pounds will once again find their way OFF my body and more will follow.