What is wrong with me?
Monday, December 16, 2013
Hello spark friends,
I really felt like I needed to blog so here I am enjoying my lunch break with my puppy. I haven't logged on here in awhile and honestly I haven't been very good to myself either. I have been so caught up with finishing grad school, starting a second night job and doing social things that today I realize I haven't been taking care of myself. I feel slow and sluggish and I realize I haven't had a good workout in about two weeks.
Here's my problem. I get super over the top "I have this" excited about making lifestyle changes. I do this for id say two weeks do fantastic and then some sort of thing either really bad food or skipping the gym totally throws my routine off and I stop completely. I am sure that has happened to everyone before but this has happened to me I swear 100 times. I just cant get myself refocused again and never know what to do about it. Its really frustrating because people will also start to comment that I look good or that they can tell I am losing weight and then I fall off the boards again. To be honest I actually don't like when people notice in person because it makes me feel skeptical and belittle myself its almost like a reverse compliment for me...Is that normal? lol
I want to really start focusing on myself again because my friend and I are getting an apartment (yay my first apartment) in two months and I really want to get a healthy routine going now that I can continue when I move..
I need help/suggestions/hugs spark love!