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"Day 1"

Sunday, December 15, 2013

How many times have I said "day 1"? I guess it doesn't really matter, because somewhere, some day, down the line, I will be repeating that same thing. It may not be weight-loss related, but it will be something worth mentioning, some "first day of the rest of your life" feeling.

Today, in spite of the fact that I REALLY didn't want to, I got up, got dressed and went to the gym with my sister. I ran a 5K, and then did 30 minutes on the stationary bike. I came home, had some healthy protein, and drank some water. I then went with my mom and sisters to Portland. I had a healthy lunch, and then later, a healthy dinner, and healthy snacks in between. For the first time, without really thinking about it too hard, or struggling with the idea, I actually stayed within my calorie range, and I felt satisfied.
I know that there will be good days, and there will be bad days, but no matter what, I will pick myself back up every time. As long as I do that, I will consider myself successful.

I have been thinking about what truly motivates me. I know what I want. I want to be under 200 pounds. I'd like to be at a healthy BMI. I would love to be able to run a marathon sometime in my 30's. Should I have children, I'd love to be healthy for them, and teach them to live healthy lives. I'd love to motivate and help other people reach their goals. I want to be able to go into a clothing store and not struggle too much (granted, I will always struggle somewhat because I'm so tall-5'10"!). I want to have my dream dress for my wedding and not feel SO insecure! More importantly, I want my physical health to serve as a reminder every day that I am worth my time. I want to look into the mirror and see my fit self, and think "yeah, I look good. I feel good, and I love myself".
The part I struggle with the most is keeping that momentum. It's hard to be motivated knowing that I have about 100 pounds to lose. It's frustrating knowing that the only way this is going to work is if I am diligent, and maybe then, just MAYBE by next year, I'll be at a healthy weight. Making changes to reach a goal that is a year away is SO hard. I guess I do that with school. I do the work, each assignment, for a degree that takes more than 1 year to complete.
I am doing fine now, and I will probably do fine tomorrow. It's daunting to think about time beyond that. I suppose the best thing to do is take it one day at a time. I find that when I am tired, I tend to want to eat more. I suppose it's bee shown that people feel hungry when they're tried because their body feels the need for fuel to continue to stay away. Right now, I'm craving ramen noodles. I will not eat them as much as I really want to. If I want them tomorrow, I will calculate it, and eat them for lunch. Until then, I will focus on getting some sleep. There's no reason to eat ramen noodles at 11:00 in the evening.
I am definitely going to get some exercise in tomorrow. I can do this. I want this.
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    You are not alone. My most recent "Day One" was six days ago. I've been on Spark since 2009 and have had more Day One's than I can count. You got this! emoticon
    1921 days ago
    Good for you! One day at a time is all any of us can do. Great success to you!
    1922 days ago
    Good start. Clear vision. emoticon Sure you can do it. The key is persistence.
    Good luck :)
    1922 days ago
    I have had a lot of day 1s. I finally realized that, for the most part, my day 1s were the result of perfectionism and an all-or-nothing attitude. I decided to take my life motto - "every little bit counts" - and use it to change this attitude of "day 1." Yes, it may be my first time back to eating well, exercising, logging into SP, whatever, but, really, it's day 2268 (since I started SP, anyway). I've had my ups and downs, and starts and stops, but each time I start up again - not over - with more wisdom and knowledge and drive. Each "day 1" I'm better than the "day 1" before, so it's not really day 1. Sure, you can have day 1s, like starting to train for a run or making a major dietary change or switching to a no-shampoo regime (yes, it's a thing), but those are specific timelines, not an ongoing lifestyle change. Be proud of your 2268 (or however many) days, even the bad ones.

    On another note, I'm thrilled to read the positivity in your attitude and aspirations. That alone is motivating for me!
    1922 days ago
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