In so need of encouragement..
Saturday, December 14, 2013
To start out with, Let me stress that I am not out to discourage anyone in their journey!!! I'm just so discouraged tonight. If you read this entire blog, please don't leave a negative reply. Lately, I've had two replies that I just had to delete because of their content. Yes, I know I should know better...telling me to "chin-up, you can do this" Right now, I don't think I can. So sorry, I don't mean to hurt anyone or discourage anyone...
I decided to have a normal eating day today. Scrambled eggs w/cheese, pop tarts for lunch, even went out to dinner with my husband and ate a burger and fried, coffee and a few chocolates after. Tested my blood sugar and it was 208. It's never been that high before. This morning when I got up, my fasting blood sugar was 125. I'm not even diabetic, just pre-diabetic. (according to my dr)
The thought of dropping normal foods, like all breads, pastas, rice, starchy veggies like beans, potatoes, corn, cereals, hot or cold, milk-any kind, cottage cheese, yogurt, most fruits, soups/stews. Those are just some of the foods that I just can't eat. I'm just so discouraged now. I'm so tired of eating eggs, salads, meat & cheese wrapped in lettuce leaves instead of a sandwich.
I guess tonight, it just got to me. I'm not doing good with my exercise either, nor my water. Sorry to complain so much. I just sat by my computer...doing some work for my church for tomorrow and just let the tears just trickle down my cheeks...I know, I'm having a pity-party. You'd think watching my dear older sister die from diabetes two summers ago would stir me up to be careful of what I eat and whatnot, but it's much harder than I thought.
Thanks for taking to time our of your day to read my blog...sorry to vent, but it has helped some, just writing it down.