I can’t believe I’m sitting here typing out these words,” I’ve hit my goal weight”. When I stepped on the scale this morning I had to recheck it…FIVE times! Haha! I’ve been overweight since 1st grade. It was a role I felt I’d have my entire life, the fat friend. Binge eating was my…correction , IS my “illness”. I blew up to 293lbs because I’d binge on food daily. I’d eat not until I was satisfied but until I was BEYOND stuffed. And once that full feeling went away I’d eat more. I never knew what feeling hungry felt like anymore because I never gave myself the chance to be hungry. I never got any exercise--I’d go to work and then come home and take a nap. Every single day. My body ached--knees, back, feet. I had horrible stomach issues and felt tired all the time. My weight was causing physical pain but also emotional pain.
When friends and I would go to the mall it’d always bother me that they’d be able to shop anywhere and buy all these cute clothes. Then they’d swap and share outfits while I had to go to the “big girl” stores and spend twice as much on an outfit that was honestly old lady-ish. I remember when the store Torrid came to our mall-- I was so excited to have a store with adorable clothes that were more fitting for my age! But it was usually pretty costly. I just wanted to be able to go into any store and buy an outfit. I was a size 22 pants, XXL shirt, and always had to buy wide shoes. I struggled with depression for a few years and I’ll be honest--it was pretty bad. I needed a change. I wasn’t happy with where my life was going. I wasn’t healthy. Before I knew it my 22’s were starting to feel snug. No way was I going up another size. I decided this is it. I NEED to get healthy. I need
to feel good physically and emotionally.
I signed up on Sparkpeople.com and started tracking my food and exercise. I worked the fast food and soda out of my diet. Worked in more fruits, veggies, and lean proteins. I have a major sweet tooth so cutting out chocolate, especially peanut m&ms, was difficult. I began walking around the lake near my house, starting off with 1-2miles. I tried my best to keep on track. I never took any before pictures or measurements because, honestly, I didn’t think I’d stick to it. I thought for sure I’d give up just like all the other diet plans I tried in the past. But after seeing a losson the scale, clothes feeling loose, and just an overall better feeling--I realized this was it. I’m doing it and it’s paying off. I just needed to find a plan that worked for me. I love food, I mean who doesn’t? haha So calorie counting let me have what I wanted but taught me moderation. It helped me not to binge. Every once in awhile I’d fall off the wagon and binge like the old days.I still struggle with that but I’m nowhere near as bad as I used to be. I’ve learned that if I lose control one day then I just need to brush off and get back on track the next day. NEVER let one bad day turn into a bad week…month. Just move on from it. Learn from it.
Now here I am-- 138lbs lighter. My knees and back don’t hurt like they used to. I have more energy and I can share clothes with friends! Haha! I average about 5miles a day (5-6x a week), I RAN a 5k,&I can get through the Insanity workout dvds without having to stop because I was exhausted or because my knees were in so much pain. My body is so much stronger inside and out. I could seriously go on forever with everything that has changed in my life from the physical to the emotional to my personality and how I handle things in life. I never thought I’d be here. Never. If you want something bad enough, you will get it. You just have to keep trying, keep pushing yourself. Treat this not as a diet but a lifestyle change. A diet is temporary--138lbs is life changing. I want to maintain this healthy lifestyle forever. I never want to lose this feeling of….LIVING.
Calorie counting and exercise did it for me. So find a way that works for YOU. I know you can do it! All you have to do is take that first step!
Lastly, I have so many people to thank for helping me, encouraging me, and pushing me. My friends, family, and fiance’ have been my biggest supporters---through the ups and downs. They were always there to offer encouragement when I wanted to give up. I certainly wouldn’t be the new healthy me without them. As well as YOU guys!!! Sparks is an AMAZING site--the information, the help, the community. I owe a large thank you to every one of you!! THANK YOU!!!