Did it again
Friday, December 13, 2013
I can't seem to keep myself on track, I just keep falling off. My daughter asked me this morning why I let myself get fat. I told her I ate way to much. Her remark is please stop eating like that. I dont really eat a lot, it's what I am choosing to eat that is my problem. I am either not eating enough in the day, or I am eating all the wrong things. Me being overweight upsets my daughter, how is that not motive enough for me to stop this ridiculous eating habit and eat right and get to the gym more often. I seem to always have some excuse for not going to the gym, I have to go to work in a few hours, or my head hurts (which it did 2 days this week), there is always something. I really need to keep her words in my head and get my butt in gear. There is nothing holding me back but myself. My job is having a biggest loser competition starting Jan 1, I entered and have told myself I will win. How am I going to get my my goal if I keep falling off the wagon. At work we have absolutely nothing healthy to eat for sale, I will find myself hungry and not bringing anything, eat something we sell. Just like today, I was getting my lunch out of the fridge, when the lid came off. It landing of course with my food on the floor. Since I dont eat off the floor I scooped it up and threw it away. So that leaves me with nothing to eat for lunch. I get my allergy shots at lunch, so that means I will get something out. I have no clue what I am going to eat, I dont want anything to bad, or even fried, greesy, you get the picture. So that leaves me with much of nothing to choose from. I will proably go by Kroger and pick up one of those togo carrot trays, you know the single serve kind, or maybe even the apple ones, idk yet. I am very close to my daughter and I just have to listen to her, I here her, but am I really listening, I would like to think so. So I am going to make this promise to my daughter, I will do this for you. Yes I have a son, but he tells me everyday he hates me and hopes I die, he pretty much lets me know I am fat and disgusting, but he isn't very encouraging. I do have 2 kids that I have to get healthy for, so I will be around to watch them grow up, and even be there to see my grandkids one day, scary thought.