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NOT a good day!!

Tuesday, December 10, 2013

This was an awful day, I know I was going to stay off mostly but just have to get this out of my system.
Today would have been my husband's 93rd BD, and it has been two years today since I lost him. That plus the loss of our daughter in Sept. made it a tearful day. I could not get myself in control. I came in here to send a birthday message and neither the computer or phones were woriing! Cell phone deader than a door nail.(another weird saying) had no way to contact anyone. ...Husband was dead and then I find my computer and phones dead!!
It is too bad that one cannot handle these things without going to pieces. Perhaps some of it was an inherited problem. My mom had a what they then called a "nervous breakdown" when I was 7. I can remember so clearly her telling me to "go to the field and get your dad" after that plans were made to leave MN and come here to the San Fernando Valley, CA.
I have so many blank spots in the memory part of my brain, yet odd things will come to mind and things I really wish I could remember are not there, like a family reunion in '09 that I have no remembrance of it. A dear niece sent my pictures of activities with different relatives, what a blessing to be able to at least see who attended.
OK, not really something that I should have made a point to share, but you all are like my family and I hope some have a bit of interest in my past,and present!! Sending much love to our Spark team, have a great rest of the week. emoticon emoticon emoticon
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    Sometimes the littlest things will bring back a flood of memories or even cause us to over-react. It is usually because some feelings hidden inside are trying to surface.
    So sorry to hear about your loss and health issues.
    Happy that you found all the wonderful Sparkies on this site!

    Remember, the only good thing about a bad day is that it lasts a day .
    Best wishes to you.
    1559 days ago
    I can't imagine the feelings of loss that you must experience from time to time. Bettie, I don't think that is a nervous breakdown, though. I think it's normal GRIEF! Grief is a process that takes years to complete. It's a necessity in our healing, too. I TRY to always make certain my grief is pointed at Jesus! He is the great healer, after all.

    Hugs dear one! Keep Jesus close at hand, as I know you must for your prayer to be answered so faithfully!

    1604 days ago
    Hi, Betty! emoticon

    I am sorry for the loss of your beloved husband & cherished daughter --- as we both know the grief of the loss of loved ones will always be with us. However, as Christ followers, we have the hope (that is the confident expectation of good to come) of being with our loved ones who are already in the presence of the Lord. That hope should give us a certain unique & wonderful peace, when the grief comes back to hit us full force, Betty.

    December 9th is a bittersweet day for our family, because it is the anniversary of the date our treasured Dad left his earthly body. I will always miss him, as I do my "Irish twin" brother, who the Lord God took into His holy presence at age twenty-nine.

    I am lifting prayer on your behalf, Betty, for your CHRISTmas season to be all that the good Lord wills it to be. May it be filled, by the hand of God, with one blessing after another!

    Merry CHRISTmas, Betty!

    1616 days ago
    Hope today is better for you.
    1625 days ago
    Sending prayers and emoticon
    1625 days ago
    emoticon to hear you are having a bad day. The loss of loved ones is never easy. Cherish the memories that you have and just remember that they are in a better place. emoticon
    1625 days ago
    emoticon to you on this tough day. We miss our loved ones every day, but certain days or memories are triggers. Sending much love your way, dear one~ emoticon
    1625 days ago
  • KERRYG155
    I'm sorry you had such a sad day. I can totally understand having the other things-computer and phone not working-being the catalyst to a breakdown. It would have done that to me, too. I don't think you're having a nervous breakdown but sometimes our brains just don't work well. I have a lot of memories missing from my childhood which my siblings all remember. I'm praying that today will be a better day for you though I know you will forever miss your husband and daughter. emoticon
    1625 days ago
    emoticon emoticon hugs and prayers for you from your other family.
    1625 days ago
    So sorry for your losses.
    1625 days ago
    emoticon to you--Prayers sent up for you---
    1626 days ago
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