It's been nearly 14 months since I've blogged. And a lot has happened in 14 months for sure!!
I've changed jobs.
I've fallen in love with a new career.
I've gained 20 pounds.
I quit Sparking ( ^ might help explain the previous statement)
I've re-fallen in love with Spinning.
I've made some REALLY AWESOME friends.
I've competed in a couple of "mud races" including the Tough Mudder. (Oh yeah baby)
I've remodeled my entire home.
I've met people from all over the country.
I've hung out with millionaires and broke a$$ people in the same room.
I've loved myself a lot.
I've been angry with myself a lot too.
I've rekindled an old friendship, that means more to me now than it ever did before.
I've lost friends (just grown apart)
I've loved and lost and hurt and rejoiced.
I've rediscovered the Lord.
So with all of that happening, I guess seeing the scale move up and down and up again and back down a little bit.... It just seemed to be, I don't know, not as important as it once was.
Yes I'm important. My health is extremely important to me. But to be honest. I've never felt better. Even though I'm 20 pounds heavier than I was a few years ago, I feel like I'm better now. I'm more "whole". I'm more mentally and spiritually whole. I'm happy for the most part. I'd be happier if I could still wear all those cute clothes that are just too darned tight, but I'm working on that. (That's changeable).
What I don't miss from being 138 pounds, is the self-righteous, narcissistic attitude I had. I thought because I was a gym bada$$ I was all that. I wasn't. I was a girl who could play with 50 pound dumbbells on a Bosu. Can I do that now? Nope. Not sure I'd even want to at this point. I'm focused on a more holistic approach to my fitness and life. I'm FAR more flexible now than ever before. Why? Because flexibility is IMPORTANT. Duh.. My skin is better, my mood is better, my outward AND inward attitudes are BETTER!
So it's 20 pounds. So it's a pants size or two. So what. I'm beautiful no matter what, because I treat people beautifully. It's not about what you weigh, what size clothes you wear, what your thigh size is, or waist size is, or bra size is.
It's about YOU 100%. Loving yourself, your near and dear and all you encounter.
Here's to a new me, may I be better tomorrow than I am today and kinder each moment!