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Monday, December 02, 2013

It seems like once I hit my stride something happens and it throws me into a downward spiral. I was losing weight really well and watching my food intake. I was working out and drinking my water doing everything I was supposed to be doing. Then all of a sudden we found ourselves without food. I was not working as many hours and my hubby was also in a work rut. I started to get a little depressed and I was hoping for some kind of miracle. We tried going to the food bank to get food but they would only give us a small grocery bag of canned food. It was something but not enough. Not complaining for the free food but for a family of four you'd think they would give you more. It was so bad John and I were eating beans and rice for dinner every night and some nights I was going without to feed the boys and John.
I didn't gain any weight but I wasn't losing either. Then all of a sudden in one night I gained 10 lbs. I have no idea where it came from but it didn't help my mood. John was getting fed up with work and so was I. The management position they were promising him was given to someone who he trained two months before and I lost a chance at a full time 40 hour position to a co-worker who came back after being gone for a month and a half. She also happened to be my boss's best friend from high school and they have been working there together for 10 years. John got so fed up he started putting in applications elsewhere but continued at work until he heard something. In the mean time my car stopped starting and we were down to using one car, again! John had to take me to work every day and pick me up on his way to work. When I had to drive home and take care of the boys until I had to pick him up at 1am. I HATE RETALE!
One morning after dropping me off at work John got a call from one of the companies he applied for, for an interview and they offered him the job right then and there.. To our luck it was a concrete/oilfield company and they offered him full time 40 hours and twice the pay he was making at Wal-Mart. We were so excited he wrote out his letter of resignation and sent it in that day. A couple days passed and I was getting more and more upset about my job. I was getting my hours cut so badly that I was barely working. When I did work it was odd shifts, basically the shifts no one else wanted. Mostly closing shifts but also opening shifts right after a closing shift. I was having mental breakdowns at work when clients would yell at me for things I didn't have the authority to do or tell them. I was not motivated to help people like I was supposed to. Any animal that came in I just wanted to smack away from me. My husband saw how depressed I was at this place and told me if I wanted to quit to do it. I have plenty of reasons to terminate my employment with them so why not. That night he wrote me out the letter of resignation and I turned it in the next day. I was so relieved to go that day considering I was supposed to work the whole day by myself. Luckily my boss let me go home early. I was so much happier when I left it was like a giant weight had been lifted off my shoulders. I am still looking for work but in the field I went to school for and for doctors I want to work for working with human beings and not animals.
The end of our lease with this apartment complex is coming up soon and we are looking for a house this time. We are so excited and can't wait to be in a home of our own.
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    Thank you everyone. I am so glad I have the support from my friends on SP. I always appreciate when I get comments on my blogs. They help me get through the day. emoticon
    1583 days ago
    it looks like things are looking up for you and you are on an upward trend. Many blessing on your life journey. Life turns and twists sometime for a good reason, sometimes only to show us how strong and resilient we are. Trust that good things will happen and open yourself to its blessings. I know when you are ready the right job will open up out of the blue and you will find yourself where you want to be!
    1597 days ago
  • MIMMA_
    Sounds like things are really starting to look up for you.
    1598 days ago
  • SHERYLP461
    I am wishing you a much better life now that your DH has found much better employment.
    1598 days ago
    I don't know what made me come to your page but I did and noticed that your name was misti. so is mine and spelled the same. of course I had to read your blog. then the similarities continued as I read. I too have found our self without food and going to food banks and there are 5 of us so I know how you feel when they give you one bag to feed all of you. my husband's name is also John that's when I started freaking out a my truck also is broke down and my husband is having to give me a ride to work every day. he is actually out of a job and has been since June and is looking for one. anyways we have a ton of things in common so I
    thought maybe we can help each other out and motivate each other as I have recently gained back all the weight I had recently lost.
    1598 days ago
    give your self grace. It is a busy time of year, plus with home life stress you described, it is understandable. I would encourage you to make sure you are doing something active everyday. I know when I left a job that was demanding to much of me (also retail) I went into a mild depression as I was looking for new work, but questioning my decision. May you find a new job soon with great co-workers. Blessings on your journey
    1598 days ago
  • GRACE1054
    I'm glad you shared your trials. It sounds as though you have a very supportive and understanding husband and I hope and pray that you are able to find employment in an area where you can use the skills that you went to school to learn and develop. Don't worry about gaining weight when you are under such stress. Yours is not the everyday kind of stress that can be managed and you need to be kind to yourself right now.

    Good luck. emoticon
    1598 days ago
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