December - The Month of Me
Sunday, December 01, 2013
Now that the biggest food holiday of the year is over, it's time to get real. Real healthy, real disciplined. Real realistic. I've decided I am going to give protein shakes, two times a day, a try. Before your eyes roll to the back of your head, allow me to elaborate...
First of all, I need to do something. I'm like a hungry monkey every moment of every day. I need some structure to back off of the continual eating.
Next, I've already cleared this protein powder with my nutritionist. It's called Raw Fit (vegan, gluten free, dairy free, soy free). With less than 1g of sugar, 28 g of protein, 1 g of fat and only 170 calories, it's a win-win. Mixed with a little almond milk, and I should be good to go.
I've also cleared it with my therapist. I was expecting push back from her because I let her know, in no uncertain terms, that I was not looking for permission simply letting her know to be transparent. She said, for whatever reason, that I do well with structure and it may be a good experiment. Check!
Last, this isn't forever. I plan on using December as an experiment of sorts, shakes ideally for breakfast and lunch, with healthy snacks in between, and then having a normal dinner. It may not always work out like that, but it can't hurt to try. My hope is that I'll see a drop on the scale and my clothes will fit better which will in turn motivate me further and help me keep going strong.
I want to feel better about myself and how I look. I want the inside of me to match the outside of me. I want to feel confident again. I want to feel strong again. I want to feel like I have control of my life again and that I'm moving in the direction that I am intended to go.
I'm hopeful that with school coming to a close in the next 2.5 weeks, I'll take the balance of my time (before school starts up again in January) and get myself to the gym. My list of already-registered 2014 5K's continue to grow. I definitely want to make sure that I prepare well and am able to participate. It starts with taking care of myself.