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3 years and 50+ Pounds Later...

Friday, November 29, 2013

Hmm... the real question is how has it been 3 years? 3 years ago I ran my first 5K without stopping, yesterday I walked a 5K in a little under an hour. 3 years ago I weighed 55 pounds less than I do now. 3 years ago my life was completely different.

I went into my 5K yesterday with a heavy heart, my thoughts wrought with memories of what was... what I was... before. I got to downtown Minneapolis with the other 19,000 people that were signed up for the Turkey Day 5K and my heart was warmed (even though it was 20 degrees out). There is a certain buzz and energy that only a crowd of runners brings; I felt it yesterday.

With the words of my physical therapist echoing in my head - ("Whatever you do, when you start running again, pretend like you never have ran before because the last thing you want to do is reinjure your foot") -I moved towards the starting line with my friend who came out to walk with me. When you have 19,000 people running together, trying to find a rhythm and space to do their thing, you get caught up in the momentum. Because of this, I ended up running for a few minutes to get out of the way.

It felt good.
It felt like home.

We walked and talked the remaining portion of the run, thankful for the lack of wind and sun shining bright.

It felt right to be back out there. I remembered what I loved about running. I remembered what it felt to be surrounded by like-minded people, regardless of shape and size and fitness level. We were all doing it, we all crossed the finish line. There is a lot to be said for that.

I feel thankful that I am able to observe that now, as before, I was only concerned with PR's and time and pace. Now? Now I am thankful that I didn't let the shame of not being able to run the race stop me from participating in the race.

It's a gentle reminder that I can do this, even if it goes slower this time.

Thanksgiving 2010: My First 5K

Thanksgiving 2013: I didn't run, but I did it
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    Way to go!!!! I love that you enjoyed yourself!!
    1934 days ago
    emoticon You look so happy!!
    1935 days ago
    You did it! And that definitely counts!
    1935 days ago
  • ALOFA0509
    AWSUM!!!! Showing up is half the battle- U did and you conquered!!! emoticon emoticon BAMF!!!!
    1936 days ago
    Oh, hooray! I am so glad you did the race, and with such a good attitude. Hugs to you on your journey!
    1937 days ago
    You go, Paula!!

    I hope you keep remembering how good you feel when you are out there running. I hope you continue with it.

    1937 days ago
  • SHEILA1505
    Well done, P
    1937 days ago
  • PJH2028
    I love love love YOU, p. You shine from the inside.
    I saw your photo on fb and was moved earlier today.
    So THANK YOU for the insight and resonance.

    (I am just beginning to realize the true Home and goodness feeling that the daily invigorating movement gave me / gives me is reward in itself. I'm not giving that to myself for a while… and i miss it -- the feeling of vitality. The bars and rings I used as incentive in the past, are not the point, but it's still hard for me to set my own pace. I miss having a trainer. LOVE having a friend like you to think of when I suit up and B R E A T H E the moment in P E A C E.)

    1938 days ago
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