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Wednesday, 11/27 Still in shock

Wednesday, November 27, 2013

Hi all,

I cannot help myself---I keep thinking about what my doctor said about the possibility of my back simply breaking at some random time. I was so scared of the proposed surgery, but I cannot even garner much in the way of thoughts and feelings about that when I keep thinking that I could be doing anything and my back might simply break. I'm thinking it would be best to be proactive and have them do it medically rather than letting nature do it at some time to be announced while I could be at work, in the pool, at church, taking a shower, sleeping, even eating. I am a nervous wreck with this important knowledge. I think it is easy to understand why I hadn't been told earlier. I just want to know what is best for me.

I understnad the dangers in any surgery that requires you to be on your stomach and under anesthesia for more than a couple of hours. You can lose memory or you can be come blind--or of course, you can die. I am sure that the act of taking the vertebrae in your back apart and reassembling them is dangerous and that the time it takes to build a "little cage around your spine" to keep it in place is more than a few moments.

I need to go finish shopping for Thanksgiving in a few minutes and I will play games on my phone to try and just keep my brain off these topics. I need to think about all of this at some point, but it isn't now. I am not liking it seeping into my thoughts right now. I sure wish that they would have given me all of the information when I asked instead of putting me off.

OK--my husband is ready to go, time for my happy face and my phone. Live on Candy Crush...

Gentle hugs,

PS Happy Thanksgiving from our house to yours. Having another daughter is a wonderful thing and I am so glad that she and my son are making this official. I know there's a date now--so the race is on for them!!

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    Sending prayers for the wisdom, courage & healing! Hugs!
    1938 days ago
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    Sylvia, I would take this surgery. I know a woman who has every vertebra in her back broken. She is in unimaginable pain :(( She looks like she has no upper body she is folded over on herself :(( They can do nothing for her as she is 95 and already has terminal bowel cancer. To put it in perspective, she doesn't even notice the cancer pain :(( Its a horrible, horrible way to be. I wish the Lord would have mercy on her and let her pass, but she is a strong willed fighter.
    Congratulations on the new DIL!!
    Hope you can enjoy Thanksgiving surrounded by all your family.
    {{{gentle hugs}}}
    1938 days ago
    Try not to worry too much. Pray about this and the answer will come. It's up to God to take care of you and He will.

    It's wonderful to be looking at having a new family member. Have a great Thanksgiving!
    1939 days ago
    Happy Thanksgiving! & Congrats again on the new daughter!
    1939 days ago
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