I Dream Big then I don't fulfill
Sunday, November 24, 2013
Well, it's been 2 months since my last blog on here, two months since my last forum post, two months since anything. What do I have to show for it? 12 pounds of weight gain. Back at the end of August, I was so close to my 350 mark, and now i'm getting closer and closer to being back at 370 again. I stopped tracking my calories all the time, I started having more and more bad days and finally just stopped caring all together. I kept telling myself, Oh I'll eat really bad today and really enjoy it then start over tomorrow. Then I would wake up and tomorrow would be Thursday and Thursday would be Monday and then the weeks would become months. Mike and I have talked in detail about wanting to lose weight. I hate the working out aspect of it and he hates the nutrition side of it. So I think we are going to start putting our heads together. My big problem with weight loss and life in general is I have big dreams. I aspire to these great things (like 80 pounds September 1st at 10 pounds a month) but then I do not want to put the work into it to get those goals met. The same is for our life. I want our house to stay really clean, but I don't want to put the work into it. I want to go out and do things with my friends, but I don't want to call them to make plans.
The best thing I can do is just to start over and make each day count. I've finally figured out a lot of the work food stuff. I have discovered a way to have taco salad (my favorite food) for about 450 calories a meal so I end up making taco meat at the beginning of my work week an having taco salad every day. This week for my other meal I'm adding in roast beef sandwiches. I'm ready for Thanksgiving but just have to be careful with all of the desserts.