yoyoing and assessing progress
Saturday, November 23, 2013
I decided it is time to take a look at my progress.
For quite a long time I have been 3 pounds away from the goal. Well sometimes 5 away and sometimes, very occasionally 2 away and do not seem to be able to do any better.
Looking at the mirror, things are much better than when I started my diet, that's for sure. No more multi rolls of back fat or double chins and the thunder-thighs are much smaller and actually somewhat concave at the inner thighs. There are no longer hang-over knees, but they are still pretty chunky. There is one small roll of fat from the waist going toward the back yet, and I still have flabby hangy-swingy Grandma arms, though they are much smaller, and I can wear a size smaller shirts.
I used to just feel disgusted when going into a dressing room at the store. There are full length mirrors which I do not have at home, and the view was revolting. Clothes never fit very well and the whole experience was depressing. I feel much more confident when seeing myself in the full length mirrors now as I am much slimmer. Unfortunately, the clothes still do not fit very well. Pants still bag out in the back at the waist for one thing and I just do not have a very "pulled together" look that I see in other people. It could be I still just do not know how to choose flattering clothes.
One thing that never occurred to me has happened, I am too little! I was so pleased when I got down to a 6 and then a 4, though some stores do not even carry 4. Now some styles of 4 plants are too baggy at the waist, so I would like to try a 2, and have found a very few. No such thing in most stores though, or they want you to go online and purchase without trying them on if they do have them! I have gone to the Junior department and found some things that fit in the 3 or 5, but pant legs are very skinny and I can't even get my legs in them, or the waist line is so low, wearing a belt is mandatory and do not sit or bend over or way too much that does not need to be exposed will show!
There is one "little" thing no one told me about loosing weight which is about as shocking as the one "little" thing no one bothered to tell me about having a baby (the extensive bleeding afterward). TURKEY NECK! I did not realize I had it until a friend took my picture and kept telling me to do things like, look up and to one side or the other. Or, he said take your barrette out and let your hair fall forward around your face. When I saw the pictures and what he was trying to hide, I was just floored. It has been several months since that happened and I have looked up exercises for the neck, but there continues to be a distinct dangle of skin wattle going vertical from under my chin and down the neck. I keep hoping it will dissolve like the other loose skin that showed up as I was loosing, but this one seems quite a bit more stubborn.
I should be very pleased with the results of my diet, and I really am feeling better about how I look, overall. I have given away all my 10, 12, 14, and 16 clothes to the thrift store and never want to see those sizes again in my closet, so that feels nice. I kept a few of the 6 and 8 that I use for working in the garden or painting, that sort of thing. Some stores only carry 6 so I have a number of dress pants in a 6 that I had to adjust the waist and hips so that I can wear them. I never thought or considered running a 5K until I joined SparkPeople and have completed 2 now. My cholesterol is barely under 200, so that is an improvement from when I started and I am no longer considered obese or even on the cusp of obesity as my Doctor called it. I still have the feeling of being a fat person, especially when eating just a little, swoops me up several pounds the next day. Well, just keep at it and keep on trying.