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i learned something today

Monday, November 18, 2013

It is no surprise to anyone who knows me that I LOVE cookies. Like, uncontrollably. I can never eat just one. One leads to a total sugar binge. I baked cookies yesterday. I guess I still felt the need for comfort. But today,I put them all in the freezer except for 2 for franks lunch. And I realized that just because things have been one way, I don't have to ALWAYS be that way. Why did it take me so long to realize that and fall into that head trap? Its dumb. I ate one cookie today. One.

I can change anything I want to. I'm the boss of me.

No more food victim. No more feeling out of control. If I eat something it will be because I choose to, not because I can' t help myself.

AND BY THE WAY...Thank you to all of you for your messages and support. I feel good and have processed everything. In fact today, I didnt want to do something and I told Frank I couldn't do it because my cancer hurt....we both started cracking up. I will be fine, no matter what the diagnosis. Thank you again. I haven't even told most of my friend in my "real" life yet so thank you for being here..
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    1586 days ago
    I'm such a bad spark friend. I only saw this today!!!! So wrapped up in my own pain nonsense. Ohh forgive me!
    Wow you are such an amazing and strong woman. First off, for stopping at ONE COOKIE. One cookie? Are you kidding me? I practically beat the Girl Scouts off with a stick since I know better than to even taste them. And it's sort of a godsend now that we can't use our oven, since I would probably bake cookies anyway!
    So yeah, you're my hero there. This is the sign of big things to come for you. You are in charge!!

    And your health, and this upcoming surgery. Oh my goodness. I'm sending you a massive supportive hug right now. HUGE. I adore you and I know you are going to get through the surgery and recovery in record time. And no doubt, with laughter!!!

    We're all supporting you, and laughing with you when you need it.
    1605 days ago
  • PJH2028
    "No more food victim. No more feeling out of control. If I eat something it will be because I choose to, not because I can' t help myself."

    Thanks. I needed that!!
    1607 days ago
    OH COOKIES!!! My crazy obsession too! i have about 14 gals coming over for a cookie exchange! gulp 14 doz cookies!!! why oh why???? HA! I love your outlook on your tests! Stay positive and things will run smoothly. hugs friend
    1611 days ago
    You are 100% right! We are in control of what we put into our mouths (or not!) Good job.

    HUGS and prayers for you.
    1612 days ago
    Yes you are in control and way to go only eating one cookie.

    Praying for you Jan, love and hugs too.

    1612 days ago
  • DAISY443
    I made Vanishing Oatmeal cookies (I add dark chocolate mini chips and walnuts) last week. Now, these are all healthy ingredients, right? Then I put them in freezer to have when my kids are here Thanksgiving. Today I checked the freezer and all 48 of them are gone. Daisy dog doesn't have opposible (sp?) thumbs, so couldn't have been her, same for Ittel cat and no one else has been in the house. I stepped on the scale today and it has gone up 3 pounds, so I think I know where the cookies went! I am going to reread your blog and learn from you! emoticon
    1612 days ago
    Way to go Jan! You are such an inspiration to me! :-)
    1612 days ago
    Good for you putting the smack down on those cookies ; ) You're right, we all have free will to do as WE want, and not be controlled by food. Score one for Jan!
    1612 days ago
    This is a great attitude Mama! keep up the great work! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1612 days ago
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