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Monday, November 18, 2013

Here are just a few things that had me grumbling this morning:

A scale that didn't budge. Again.
Wondering how I can do this with: 2 children to homeschool
a special needs son that shouts, grinds his teeth and is willful
a house that I can't ever seem to get control of, totally
a desire to have a clean house & missing the days when I could keep it clean
phones, remotes and other important things are in continual flux of being lost and found because my son likes to gather them up & just put them in weird places. (I've even found them in a backpack once in the deepest recesses of his closet.
insulin resistance
a need for quiet that I rarely get
My son needs to learn how to drink so we can lose the mic-key button in his tummy.
Then he needs to learn to eat solid food.
Oh! My spoons are all over the house because my son is obsessed with bowls and spoons.
Then there's the scrape, scrape, scraaaaaaape, scrape, scraping sound of the spoon incessantly stirring dried navy beans. sigh Just try to ignore it Cindy!

Soooo, after being in a grumbly mood for awhile, I started thinking about what is awesome about my life:
two kids to homeschool
a 7 yo son with Down Syndrome that pulls out the cute face right when I feel like strangling him
a daughter that is amazingly sweet hearted, smart, helpful, and is improving in her schoolwork all the time.
a son that does his cute face
a daughter that is inquisitive and loves to learn (scrape, scrape, scrape)
a son that does his cute face
an amazing, handsome husband who happens to be my best friend
a son that does his cute face (scrape, scraaaaaape, scraaaape)
a cozy home
a son that does his cute face
OH! My son is FINally learning to be potty trained after months of working on this. PRAISE GOD! (scraaaaaaaaape, teeth grinding noise, scrape)
the ability to choose my attitude. (AAAAHHHHHHH, scrape, tap, tap, BANG, BANG)

Spending all my extra time losing weight is hard.
Finding extra time to do exercise & meal plan is hard.
Not being able to get everything done in a day I need to is hard.
Being overweight is hard.
Choose your hard. (more teeth grinding, AHHHHHH!)

As I stand here on the road, I look back at eating what I want, being sick, overweight, embarrassed and having no pride in my appearance. Then I look in the other direction toward hard work, health, energy, smaller clothes, confidence, & going on more outings with my family.


Onward toward hard work and health . . . . I say as my son poops in the potty and dumps a big bowl of dry navy beans all over the living room floor and shouts. emoticon

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  • KAREN608
    I agree being overweight is hard!
    That is why we are eating a bit less isn't it?
    Interesting blog!
    2159 days ago
    You are a VERY blessed woman! One day (yep, an old woman's point of view lol) you will remember this time as you look back over the years, and SEE how fulfilling it was!

    I sense your great love for your children. Homeschooling is a tough road, I did it, and I LOVED it.
    As you are able to get more involved with other homeschooling moms, your options will rise on the horizon.

    You are stuck on GOD and HIS will for you, is how I read this.

    I say again:

    You are B-L-E-S-S-E-D!!!!!!


    2162 days ago
    I agree with Kim. Sounds to me like it is a workout on its own. I feel sorry for you girl but you are a trooper and God definitely is your strength. Love you sis,Amy B.
    2162 days ago
    You are all so wonderful with your encouragement! We jokingly say we live in a perpetual Saturday Night Live episode. A clean one. There are so many random things that happen in this house. lol Every day, I find myself saying things like, 'Well, ya don't see THAT every day.' I am being honed. Sometimes I question why, but I trust God's plan. I can truthfully say that it always works out best doing things His way. I tend to muck things up.

    It seems like things happen in such rapid fire succession in our house, that it can get overwhelming at times. It is in these times that my choices boil down to an essence of 3. Scream. Go crazy. Or laugh. I've been tempted to go crazy. But that's not an option. Scream? I've been guilty a few times. (STOP SHOUTING!! Note the irony?) But by far, the most fun option is laughing. Laugh or go crazy, I am often heard saying. Sometimes maniacally. Okay. I just noticed that is bordering on nuts. Crazy laughing. Meh. It gets me through. lol

    I have crossed paths with Pixielicious on occasion. I will definitely look her up!
    2162 days ago

    Comment edited on: 11/19/2013 11:00:16 AM
    You have your hands full and then some! I'm surprised you have time to eat at all. As I was reading your words I kept thinking you should talk to Pixilicous (I hope I spelled that right). She has a son with Down's and seems to have found a way to juggle everything. Her son is older but she might have some suggestions to make the day to day easier.
    2162 days ago
  • no profile photo SUEPERWOMAN

    This was so beautifully written. God bless you, you have many struggles.
    I am here for you whenever you need an ear.

    You are stronger than you know!! Keep on keeping on, Sweetie. I am here if ever
    you need an ear.

    Love, Ginger
    2162 days ago
    You certainly have your hands full that is for sure! I am glad that you are able to see the good in your situation and while your situation is unique, it isn't impossible ; it will be tougher though. Take your concerns to God and place Him in the center of this. Prayers go out to you.
    2162 days ago
    Thank you.

    Thank you for your humor and heart.

    Thank you for insisting on seeing the good.

    Thank you for not ignoring the hard stuff.

    You are my hero!
    2162 days ago
  • KIM22211
    I don't know how you wouldn't lose weight just keeping up with that busy bunch!!!! Could your son give me some tips on the cute face please? I could sure use one to manipulate...ummm I mean show my hubs! lol!!!!!!!!
    2162 days ago
    You do have your hands full, but they are full of wonderful treasures. That's great that you took the time to list them. You are blessed! And, so are your children!!!
    2162 days ago
    Oh my word, child!!! You sound like you are drowning. I had a nephew who was born with Spina Bifida and was paralyzed from the waste down. He had no control of his bodily functions at all. One leg about four inches shorter than the other. His name was Mike. He was just 3 years younger than me. My brother and his wife had their hands full. As an adult, I look back and wonder how in this world they did all they had to do. I know they were tired and I know there were times when they just wanted to run and scream. But they survived all that because, he was an everlasting ray of sunshine. He never once complained. And they loved him with their whole heart, just as you love that "cute face".

    I want to share something with you that is from a Max Lucado book (You'll Get Through This) which I am reading. Repeat these words out loud and take note of what is being said:

    "You'll get through this.
    It won't be painless.
    It won't be quick.
    But God will use this mess for good.
    In the meantime don't be foolish or naive.
    But don't despair either.
    With God's help, you will get through this" by Max Lucado

    The book is based on the story in Genesis about Joseph and all that he went through. I wish you could read this book. It has been a great help to me going through some things in my own life.

    God loves you. This team family loves you. You will get through this. Really.

    I will be praying for you.

    God bless. Judi emoticon emoticon
    2162 days ago

    Comment edited on: 11/18/2013 8:27:08 PM
  • KMW987
    One day at a time. One step at a time. You are amazing!

    2162 days ago
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