Friday, November 15th, 2013....
Friday, November 15, 2013
Been very depressed lately. Haven't really thought about working out or tracking. All I want to do really is cry and I am not sure why. Otherwise, work has been going good. Just wish I didn't have to go and clean on my days off during the week.
Every Sunday I keep saying to myself "I will start working out and tracking my food this week, starting today." But I never do. It seems like in the beginning I was gung ho about everything and slowly it went downhill. Whether I am working or cleaning it seems like my whole body hurts. Especially after I have been at work all night because I am standing and walking around all night at work.
It seems like my life isn't my life anymore. I thought everything would have been different once I had a job, but now I am thinking that that is not the case. I really don't have any money left over after I pay my boyfriend's mom every two weeks. Plus I have a laptop on layaway that I have to get pretty soon. Right now it seems like there is no end in sight. More later..