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What is my identity?

Thursday, November 14, 2013

This week I have been thinking alot about my identity. It has really changed many times in the last five years when I lost weight. I went to someone that was a reader, overweight girl to a runner, skinny girl. Some of these identities were hard because it meant not fitting in with family or friends anymore. Maybe it also meant being an individual when I am just trying to figure who I want to me.

Than, this year happened.

I went from runner, skinny girl to I don't what who I am. I do identify with being a runner, skinny girl anymore. I am not a student anymore either. Nor a fitness expert. Nor the girl that lost 100 pounds.

Since moving, I feel like I am a nobody. No body here knows the accomplishments or even cares. They see me as an Americorp VISTA which is lower than an intern I am finding.

But, besides a VISTA, who else am I?

Female? A sister? A daughter? Those are just relations. I guess you could say I am an author or painter. But, that is more from pressure of my boyfriend.

So, who do I want to be?
A continued success story? An author? A casual runner? A marathoner? A marketing guru? A nurse?

Anyhow, I just needed to jot down these thoughts.. Maybe by acknowledging I am having a mini-identity issue, I can stop emotionally eating.
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    I have been a full-time volunteer with Habitat for Humanity International (5 years). My husband has been a VISTA (3 years). I have friends who were Peace Corps volunteers. I have known many Americorps Volunteers (mostly because I worked with them) and I can assure you, You Are Somebody Awesome.

    You need to ignore the haters because that's what they are. You are making a real sacrifice to serve other people. You hold your head up high and be proud of yourself. Not many people are able or willing to do what you are doing. What you are doing is sacramental. I am not exaggerating. I learned ages ago from the Baltimore catechism that a sacrament is "a visible sign of God's grace in the world." Yeah. That would be you.

    I have no idea what your religious/faith/humanitarian beliefs are, but I cannot help but think of Teresa of Avila's words:

    Christ Has No Body

    Christ has no body but yours,
    No hands, no feet on earth but yours,
    Yours are the eyes with which he looks
    Compassion on this world,
    Yours are the feet with which he walks to do good,
    Yours are the hands, with which he blesses all the world.
    Yours are the hands, yours are the feet,
    Yours are the eyes, you are his body.
    Christ has no body now but yours,
    No hands, no feet on earth but yours,
    Yours are the eyes with which he looks
    compassion on this world.
    Christ has no body now on earth but yours.

    1682 days ago
    I have to tell you, I will be 60 in February and have had MANY changes in my identity as I've grown and matured and evolved.

    So, that is a part of the growing process. AS part of any growing process, you do have to figure out who you are!

    You, my dear, are in a state of flux and that really makes it a little more difficult, but the constants in your life -- as SHERYL said are:

    You are a beautiful young woman.

    You are a daughter, sister, colleague to the others you work with, a girlfriend, a friend. Yes -- all those relationships are part of who you are for sure! You are a runner (be it casual or whatever!) All these add up to beautiful, wonderful Savannah!

    So, definitely explore in writing as you are doing with this blog! It is enlightening and interesting to see who you ARE!
    1683 days ago
    You are Savannah
    A beautiful young woman who Is constantly evolving and changing and spreading her wings. And you will keep changing from one wonderful phase of your life to another. emoticon
    1683 days ago
    What an interesting blog. I haven't had the pleasure in a long time of re-evaluating who I am. It is interesting to walk through your thought process. You will find your new identity again. Keep thinking. It will come to you.
    1683 days ago
    I feel like I've been going through something similar lately. I've given too much time to my job and have forgotten to do those things that I enjoy. I'm working on taking the time to do those things that are just for me. You'll figure it out!
    1683 days ago
    I am reading a book by Max Lucado. He speaks about the odds of finding someone exactly like you, being infinitesimal. I just read that part today, and it made me realize that I am just me and that is pretty awe inspiring. So even if you are having a mini identity crisis, you are still who you were born to be, and no-one else can be you. Hugs, Cathy
    1683 days ago
    I could say you are who you are moment by moment. The personality/ego is very changeable, very flexible, and never happy with it's image.

    We all have this problem. We react to it differently. Some even keep the glory of their accomplishments in the spot light because without that they would have nothing. That's dam sad!

    So, who do you want to be? What do you want to accomplish? What inspires you?
    1683 days ago
    I think it's natural to try to put a label on who you are based on who, what and where you are in life to be able to identify with people who are like minded. It gives a sense of security to "fit in" some where. I too struggle with fitting in, and often question my own identity labels.

    People wear so many hats throughout their life. Everything you were in the past, and are in the present, are all things you can identify with. each "hat" is just a chapter in life.

    You are You, and You are enough! Thats the only label that really matters. Hold your head high! Own it! emoticon
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