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Looking back at my journey...

Thursday, November 14, 2013

I've been thinking about my weight loss journey today. It has been broken up into sections of fat relapses for various reasons, with one major connecting theme.

The first major success was when I studied in Quito, Ecuador, my last semester of college. I stayed with a host family and got very used to increased activity, broth-based soups before meals, and someone else planning all of my meals. Once I saw some weight loss progress without trying, I intentionally looked for opportunities to be active (joined a volleyball class, walked every day after school, etc.) It was so natural at first but by the end of the 5 months, I ruined it by pushing myself too hard. I returned home 2 days before Christmas, where there were plenty of goodies, and I just let loose. Bye bye progress.

The next came five years later when my grandmother died of leukemia. A month later, the vet told me my dog needed to lose weight. I asked him how much and he grabbed him by the scruff of the neck and said, "At least 10 pounds." It was 20 percent of his body weight! Somehow it was ok for me to be obese, but not my dog. I launched a walking program for us and joined Team in Training to simultaneously train for a marathon and raise money for the Leukemia & Lymphoma Society to honor my grandma. It was great motivation. It was also when I joined Sparkpeople, which was so helpful. By the end of this section, I had lost a total of 91 pounds and the dog was in tip-top shape. However, I had been pushing myself too hard for too long. And then my boyfriend broke things off in a very unhealthy / unhelpful way. It was the catalyst to what was already inevitable and I gained back a total of about 40 pounds over three years. Wow.

So here I am again. I began again this summer when my sister asked me to be her maid of honor at her wedding. An honor for sure but I couldn't stomach the thought of those wedding pictures being framed and on the wall forever at that weight. This time, though, I have the support of a healthy relationship that has taught me so much about moderation in all things. Moderation is something I have never been able to attain in any of my weight loss attempts and I fail. I can see (for the first time) that I can cut myself some slack and still be successful! I truly believe (for the first time) that I will have a healthy BMI (in just 16 pounds!) and will be able to maintain it without punishing myself day after day with ever-increasing routines.

I'm so excited to get there but remind myself that it'll happen soon enough. In the meantime, I give myself permission to appreciate where I am at: being at the lowest weight in my adult life, but more importantly, feeling the best ever during a weight loss journey and truly believing this is something I can maintain for a lifetime.
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    Yay You!! How terrific do you feel? Health should not be a punishment! Moderation is our true friend! You can do this forever and ever!
    1646 days ago
  • SUNSET09
    Love who you are where you are and in due season, we will all reach our goals. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1646 days ago
  • ADF1981
    You're right, it will happen soon enough! Learning everything in moderation is hard. I haven't mastered it yet, but getting there. You're doing so great and you will do this! emoticon
    1647 days ago
  • DR1939
    1648 days ago
    What an awesome trip down memory lane! I believe many of us can and should take that very same trip! Congratulations on learning "moderation in all things", that is not an easy lesson to digest. I'm very happy for your success thus far and your continued success in the future!
    1648 days ago
    Good self reflection and insight. It is about progress not perfection. emoticon
    1648 days ago
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