The start (again)
Wednesday, November 13, 2013
I started SparkPeople on May 25, 2012. I wanted to do something for me. Tired of feeling and looking fat. I decided to do something about it. I meant it, then. But, typical for me, it didn't last long. I started out gang busters. Then I would skip a day. Then two days. I had lots of excuses. My biggest excuse was my thyroid. I have an under active thyroid. In my mind, that was a real good excuse to be lazy.
A couple of months ago, I noticed my weight climbing. Why? I was eating better and going to the gym... kind of. I shouldn't really be putting on any weight... really (really?).
A few days ago, I decided to get back on to SparkPeople and use their food tracker to see where my poor choices were. Ooops, eating way too much carbs. Quietly, I knew that but wasn't willing to admit it openly.
Today, I've decided to take it more seriously. You see, back then, in May of 2012, I told myself I was serious, but I didn't hold myself accountable. I allowed my self to cheat. I don't mean the occasional sneak of a piece of candy. I mean the occasional piece of cake, then later convince myself I ate healthy all day I could indulge some more. That piece of cake was my reward. And so were the rest of the goodies I would allow myself to eat. The pasta with alfredo sauce, etc.
Well, guess what.... Those pieces of rewards and lazy attitude towards eating healthy and the not going to the gym consistently really add up. I cheated myself. I cheated myself out of being healthy and feeling good about myself. So, was it really a reward? No, it just tasted good.
Today I want to take my self seriously and do this right. I don't want to say, I mean it this time then later get lackadaisical. I want this to be it. I wan't off the diet yo-yo.
I can and I will do this!