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Eleven days out... the Rebel ponders the process

Wednesday, November 13, 2013

emoticon This morning the scale persistently said a number that at one time in my life I would have rejoiced over. But it's higher than my normal "athletic" weight. And there's a part of me that is bothered by it.

emoticon Autumn is a tough time of year for me. It's tough for many people: the hours of sunlight diminish. The temperatures drop. The thought of Winter ahead looms. Warm, filling, comforting foods come out, not to mention holiday treats. The impulse to hibernate comes in.

I have to guard against complacency, mind you, but I also have to take myself back through the process and how motivation works "for me". Because if I've learned one thing over the decades it is that "one size does NOT fit all".

Some people are motivated by putting a goal out there, and then stretch and reach and achieve. Others of us begin self-sabotage when we get anywhere CLOSE to that kind of goal.

So, in the beginning, I was really, really squishy about "goal weight". I found a level of eating and activity I was comfortable with, and let my body get to its natural level. Problem, that natural level was based on a very active lifestyle. Now, as I ponder changing my focus and my self-definition... that natural level *could* change.

emoticon Danger signal: this does not mean I can go out and eat anything and everything I want... because I know where THAT leads. Back to the pre-healthy lifestyle. emoticon

Question to self: can I repeat the feat? Can I find a NEW level of healthy, maybe one that *isn't* in training for "the next big thing"... but also isn't totally unhitched from balanced eating and moderate activity.

Yep, the Rebel is trying to find her way. She's a bright kid... she'll figure it out. emoticon
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    Finding the place where your decision fits you is indeed important. We learn options by seeing what others decide. We gain wisdom when we figure what works for us.
    1618 days ago
    Trust your instincts and make the journey worth the effort. Repeat? Definitely doable!
    1618 days ago
    You CAN trust your rebel: she's never let you down. And she will figure this out too.

    (Your pumpkin spice oatmeal sounds delish!)
    1619 days ago
    I'm laughing here about your comments about my ""stress"" posting!--I put it on the blog, knowing I might take flack for it--LOL---but---you are a woman after my own heart---recognized it for what it is-----Your blogs are great Barb!!!--You sure do exercise as if your life depends on it--- emoticon Lynda
    1619 days ago

    Comment edited on: 11/14/2013 7:27:51 AM
    Of course you'll figure it out. Without a doubt.
    1619 days ago
    Keep at it! I'm not giving up, and neither should you.
    1619 days ago
    Interesting thought; what would maintenance look like when simply taking a break to restore mental energy as much as to restore physical energy? I've taken breaks for injury, and I've reduced physical activity because of scheduling time limits, but I've yet to back off just because my body and psyche say it's time to back off.

    It will be interesting to see how you handle this. Your solution probably won't be identical to what I would need, but it will likely shed light on how I should look at the issue, when it arrives for me.
    1619 days ago
    Are you second guessing yourself? Are you tired? You have done a wonderful job of losing and maintaining, you have constantly been active and watched what you have eaten.
    Maybe it is time that Barb, (not Rebel or Polly) takes a break and rests for a while. Barb, you can rest without going off the deep end and eating everything in site. We all know that you can and will continue to eat healthy, because you will refuse to go back to where you really began this journey. Run Forest Run needs to be turned into
    Rest Barb Rest.

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    1619 days ago

    Comment edited on: 11/13/2013 5:14:49 PM
  • GABY1948
    WOW GREAT blog. You put into words what I have tried to figure out for WHEN I get there! THANKS, Barb
    1619 days ago
    I would hibernate all winter if I could... I have adjusted my fitness tracker down a bit from my summer target, because I know I just won't be working as hard.
    1619 days ago
  • DALID414
    1619 days ago
    It is a time of transition...I can relate to much of what you said. Keep the faith...I trust you will figure this out in your own time. emoticon
    1619 days ago
    Ah, yes -- the whole self-sabotage thing. I feel your pain but am confident you'll figure it out.
    1619 days ago
    My thought was exactly Lynda's -- you are a rebel WITH a cause!!! Having reached maintenance going on almost 4 yrs. it is a daily reminder to make choices that don't lead me back to my pre-Spark days.

    Keep pushing, Barb. You'll tame that rebel.
    1619 days ago
    Since I have had to back off from running until I see the podiatrist, the scale creeps up quicker than it did all year when I always had a race to prepare for so it has affected my mood. Trying to fight that and like you said, find a new active lifestyle.

    Great blog!
    1619 days ago
    You can do this!!!!!
    1619 days ago
    "Can I find a NEW level of healthy?" A great question my friend and one I faced when life 'took' our tri-team goal. I'm still not back to pre-cancer fitness and miss our weekend and emoticon to work, but I plan on moving that direction once the days lengthen.

    I like the idea of seasonal 'levels of healthy' of letting the emoticon fluctuate a little (remember it is only ONE measure of health) and 'tri'ing options available in the short days we have.

    I for one, know you will find your NEW level and those of us who follow your journey will reflect upon how we can find ours.
    1619 days ago

    Comment edited on: 11/13/2013 8:25:40 AM
    a rebel WITH a cause!!!!--LOL---- I know she will figure it out!
    Funny how you thought of Tess and Coal at your dog park--Here's hoping there are no Blastomycosis spores in that park!-- emoticon
    1619 days ago
    Good you think Rebel can contribute to this undertaking, but don't you really think Barb should be refereeing between Polly and Rebel? I don't know if that's a helpful response or not. If not, discard it, but it was my first thought when I read your blog.

    I can identify with that active lifestyle now but wondering how good I could do if I went back to a less activity. For years I walked or did Walk Away the Pounds for 30 minutes 5 times a week. Now I average over an hour a day 6 days a week. How would I do if I went back to my old activity level or if I had an injury and couldn't do even that? At Weight Watchers I've reduced my goal weight twice, 155 to 148 to 139. I've left it at 139 when I've been weighing 127-134 there for 4.5 years. When asked to reduce it again I told them that if I couldn't run I think I would weigh about 139 so I want to leave my goal weight there. They accepted that. I'm not 100% certain that I could gain 5-10 pounds and stop gaining, but I think I could. Hope I don't have to find out.

    I keep looking at all the races that have few if any female finishers over 70. I think we ought to aim to fill those spots!! Here's to many, many healthy and happy years to come!!! -Marsha
    1620 days ago
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