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Healing From the Inside Out

Tuesday, November 12, 2013

Many years ago a physician put me on Methamphetamine until it was taken off the legally prescribe lists of the FDA. Then he put me on Equanil 200 mg all for my depression caused by my Grandmother's Death. I quickly became an Addict. It took a case of food poisoning to get me to kick the addiction. The physical withdrawal was horrible. I never wanted to go through that again.
My mother was Obese. I could not put my arms completely around her to give her a hug. My fingers wouldn't even touch behind her back as a young adult. It seems to me she always had a cold hot dog or a rolled up slice of bologna in her hand to nibble on. I know her teeth were very bad and when they were finally pulled she couldn't afford dentures so nibbling on carrot sticks and celery or apples was nearly impossible. But I never wanted to get like that,--fat. So I ate very little or a lot of low calorie food items, such as what most fast food places call a side salad today. If per chance I ate a Whopper and Fries for lunch that pretty much was all I ate that day except for a snack bag of chips or a candy bar. I drank Pepsi or Coke or Dr. Pepper or Root beer. Milk was out of the question, due to allergies. If I had a Float I took a benadryl to prevent the hives.
I started Smoking about 2 years after I quit the prescription drugs. I smoked anywhere from 1/2 a pack a day to 4 packs for right near 40 years. I started drinking for the grins and giggles of it and the angry fits of being lied to. It took a little while for me to become an Alcoholic. I was a functional Drunk. Most people never really knew I was under the influence. I don't see how they could not know, maybe they were just in denial. After being drunk since Feb. 20th to Dec. 25 constantly. I embarrassed myself to the point I put down the Booze and sobered up. I don't really remember much from that Christmas day until New Years Day, except picking floating flowers out of the air and putting them in my imaginary vase. Oh I saw the flowers and the vase I thought I was poking them in. That was my Pink Elephant Detox. I still smoked. I finally quit that also a few years ago.
You see I was reared as a Wesleyan Methodist during my formative years. I was Baptized a Southern Baptist as a young Adult. Took Catholic Instruction around the age of 35 at the encouragement of my in-laws. Oddly enough though, the only ones who came to my assistance in my time of need was none of those. I prayed for help in dealing with a dying brother and an ill husband, both with Kidney Cancer and Who showed up? It wasn't anyone from the methodist, the baptist or the catholic or even the Quaker churches. The Quakers did call occasionally but their closest group was 35 miles away. It was the Witnesses, the Jehovah's Witnesses, who stepped up and helped.
I had attended Alcoholics Anonymous and read their books as well as Narcotics Anonymous. I even picked up the Books from the Catholic Church; 'Becoming a New Person', 'Twelve Steps to Spiritual Wholeness', and the Book 'Recover and Heal: Meditations on the Twelve Steps'. I occasionally was going to meetings some times every meeting I could get off work for, other times maybe weekly or monthly. Some people there had something and I wanted it, others were just there filling in a box on a piece of paper. This is what caused me to Start Studying the Bible with the Witnesses.

I want to Share My new found Understanding, Knowledge and Wisdom with Others. Healing from the Inside Out is all about doing just that.
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  • no profile photo CD11848595
    I can relate to much of what you say here. In all my years, I have learned we all must find our on individual paths to follow and it seems you found yours as I found mine. There is much power in that uh? What a journey we walk in this life and when we cross paths it shows us we are not alone and the one thing we all have in common no matter what is unconditional love. Best to you! emoticon
    2608 days ago
  • LINDAM.1
    We all have our own paths to take, too Be happy and healthy.
    2702 days ago
    Healing from the inside out is the only thing that works.

    Best wishes on your health journey!

    2708 days ago
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