I Don't Know, Bad Day or Good?
Monday, November 11, 2013
Not sure if today was bad or good, well why should there be only those two categories? I'd say today went along slowly, and there were a few stumbles. Like when I zoned out at work, thinking too hard about my weight and how bad I feel about myself. I must've looked out of it because my co-worker said "are you ok? do you need some water or anything?" I turned a shade of red and just said "no thank you I'm fine".
Yes, today was my first day back at work since I got sick. (YES!) And after a nerve-wracking talk with my boss, where she expressed some concern over my so many sick days, I was back, baby! Well.... sort of... not really. I had a hard time falling back in the rhythm of things and I felt like an outsider. So many days have passed, and so many things have happened there, and here I am, stuck on slow.
I realized I hate a lot of things about myself today. I love myself though, although sometimes I have bad days too. But I hate my weight, how big I've gotten. It's got to change. I cannot continue like this.
Although good things happened, I went to work and then shopping, for some reason, I'd say today ... it feels like a bad day.
Hoping tomorrow is easier for me.