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I Don't Know, Bad Day or Good?

Monday, November 11, 2013

Not sure if today was bad or good, well why should there be only those two categories? I'd say today went along slowly, and there were a few stumbles. Like when I zoned out at work, thinking too hard about my weight and how bad I feel about myself. I must've looked out of it because my co-worker said "are you ok? do you need some water or anything?" I turned a shade of red and just said "no thank you I'm fine". emoticon

Yes, today was my first day back at work since I got sick. (YES!) And after a nerve-wracking talk with my boss, where she expressed some concern over my so many sick days, I was back, baby! Well.... sort of... not really. I had a hard time falling back in the rhythm of things and I felt like an outsider. So many days have passed, and so many things have happened there, and here I am, stuck on slow.

I realized I hate a lot of things about myself today. I love myself though, although sometimes I have bad days too. But I hate my weight, how big I've gotten. It's got to change. I cannot continue like this.

Although good things happened, I went to work and then shopping, for some reason, I'd say today ... it feels like a bad day. emoticon

Hoping tomorrow is easier for me.
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  • no profile photo CD13961612
    I was going through older posts at the SP forum and read one of yours and then read some of your blogs. I wonder how you are doing now?

    I'm a recovering binge eater too. What is helping me now is the books by Dr. Joel Fuhrman. If you are very sensitive to many types of food maybe reading his work might help, for example 'Fasting and eating for health' and 'Eat to live'.
    If you should come back to SP, I hope you'll add me as a friend.
    2220 days ago
    Aww, I hope so also. Be kind to yourself if you can. :)

    Good for you for getting back to work, even if you did feel a bit out of it. It's hard to get back in the flow of things if you've been away for long, but give it a few days, I'm sure you'll adjust.

    Take care!
    2505 days ago
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