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Stupid Me, Stupid People But Oh Yeah Did I Say Stupid Me?

Saturday, November 09, 2013

Stupid. Stupid stupid. I feel... dumbfounded. And hurt. And depressed.

I was with a few "friends" and I overheard them talking about me. This is what they said: "Have you seen Jenny? She looks like she's a 50 year old woman, look at her! What did she do with herself?? " (The 'look at what she looks like' is implied. It really hurt and it's been bothering me all day. I KNOW I look BAD but COME ON!!!! emoticon

Anyways that's been on my mind the whole day and it's the most hurtful thing anyone's said to me in awhile, because it's so personal. HOW DARE SHE?? I'm not mad/still stuck on hurt. And tears. Yep tears are flowing freely.

I also feel so bad about myself today, because of that comment, but hey that's not new. I feel like I've given up on dressing myself up and fixing my hair and wearing makeup. I just don't see the point. I hear some people say plus size girls should take better care of themselves than skinny girls because, well, they're plus sized. I read an article about that. I don't know, I just do what I feel and what I feel like doing is ... nothing. Why draw attention to myself if I don't have the confidence to back it up? I'm so disappointed in myself for getting this big.

Please, someone, say something.
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    I'm not sure I'd consider those people friends. If you're at all like me you don't have the nerve to say anything to them. If I did have the nerve I'd tell them if they can't say supportive things to me I'd rather they not talk about me at all. I've gained more weight than I ever thought I would but I still wear makeup and do my hair. It makes me feel better.
    2508 days ago
    People can be SO CRUEL ! Please try to ignore those shallow thoughtless "friends". Don't worry about what you look like. Work on developing a healthier lifestyle and you will have a healthier body and feel better about yourself. I've added you as a SparkFriend.
    2508 days ago
  • DEB62BIE62
    So sorry to hear that someone said such hurtful things. People can be so callous. Just be encouraged to know that you are on Spark People and you are doing something to take care of yourself, and ignore those people. Don't feel stupid. We just make wrong choices, but as long as we do something to change that, we can be proud of ourselves. emoticon emoticon
    2508 days ago
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