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Saturday, 11/9 Running on Empty

Saturday, November 09, 2013

Hi All,

I've been busy, overwhelmingly busy. I can't get time to do much of anything--I worked until after 6:30 twice this week. I can't seem to get caught up. I'm tired too, it is all I can do to work these days. Any thoughts on this?

As for pain, my bubble has burst. It seems as if these injections hav already worn off and aren't helping me. I don't know where exactly this will take me. I call the spine doc at Mayo Clinic at the end of the week. I intend to talk to Dr. F this week (Tuesday) to run everything that I've learned by him to see what his take is. My pain doctor knows my anatomy better than any other living soul but me. I do know that stress can exaggerate pain and fibromyalgia, so I am doing my best to eliminate my stresses and to manage what I can't eliminate in order to care for myself. I am faithfully keeping my pain journal, so hopefully we will find some patterns and triggers in it.

Speaking of, our 15 year old is going through the nastiest case of adolescent opposition that I have ever been through. He hasn't been kind or cooperative with me or Floyd in weeks and it is very hurtful. He is taking the bulk of his anger out on me, most likely because he has been able to talk to me and I have listened to whatever he has needed and wanted for his entire life. He seems to be striking out against me because he knows I love him and that I care. He is resisting all parental controls and decisions, and his resistance is hateful and hurtful. I'm trying to understand that it is a phase and not personal, but it wears me down when it doesn't let up on me. I have taken away his access to the Internet for as long as it takes. He moves between negotiating and anger...

Floyd got some orchid plants for our anniversary on Wednesday and he took me out to dinner. Last night, I left work just before 7 and Miles took Micah, his father and I out to dinner. There have been some nice things taking place this week. It is hard to enjoy them the way I'd like to with work being at the level it is at. I'm having a lot of difficulties with such an overwhelming workload that is getting increased multiple times a day at anybody's whims. I'm afraid to open my work email these days because of what it may tell me that I have to do that's an added activity. I have a good 8 hours of work sitting here this weekend and am hoping to catch up. Today is the day for my lunch date with my best friend, then I'm going to the pool before I go to school to do a couple of hours of work. It is my goal to get my work load under control during this three day weekend to give myself some respite. When work reconvenes. It's a gift to my well being like going to the pool.

That's about all I can share. I've been receiving notes from my friends who are missing me and my participation here. You are not forgotten, I am simply on over load and the real world trumps the cyber world. I have always hesitated taking on too much here at SP because I know what teaching can be about and how it can take more than it's fair share in my life. I do it because it is that important to start with and because I cannot do it any other way. I'm committed to my students and my profession right after my family. Everything else comes in next.

Please trust that I haven't forgotten and that ill be back when time allows and I have some breathing space. Wen a teacher misses work, that teacher has far more work than. Se had to start with. Tis is a big difference than any other vocation that I am aware of. Even I didn't expect all of this after missing 4 days last week.

Gentle hugs,
Sylvia
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  • BLUESTARMOM
    You need to talk to your principal and tell her that things are out of control and you need some help. I hope you can get to the pool. I know how much it helps me, mentally as well as physically. Sending you lots of hugs.
    1829 days ago
  • MTNGRL
    Sylvia, so good to hear from you. Thank you for taking the time in your so busy life to give us an update. Cyber world sure does take a back seat to real life. Belated Happy Anniversary. Take care of you! If momma isn't happy, no one is!! Gentle Hugs!!
    1832 days ago
  • PUGRAD1995
    Sylvia,
    Take care. I am in the same place-injections aren't helping so we bumped up my pain meds some more. But the next bump will make it hard to drive or work, so at some point I may have to decide about disability. Not liking that idea right now. I just keep taking it one day at a time!

    My work is similar too-the work waits until you come back unless it was an emergency and then the backup takes over. Catching up is tough.

    Hang in there. At least today the weather is gorgeous and I am feeling better.
    DIana
    1833 days ago
  • MORTICIAADDAMS
    I can relate - feeling the same way. Overwhelmed and unable to keep up. Feel like I'm treading water and losing.

    I hope they can manage your pain soon. I keep trying to manage my medical problems and don't seem to be able to do v3ery well so I can relate.

    I can relate to the male teen adolescent. Ours went through it when he was older but he is changing and yours will come around too. I guess at some point we have to be stupid and the villains to them. They have to work through it. You are doing the right thing.

    Take care of yourself and try to find times to unwind like your anniversary dinner and lunch with your friend. You need that to refuel. We will be here when you have time for us. You are loved! emoticon
    1833 days ago
  • _LINDA
    So very sorry to hear of this heavy workload :(( That is all the stress alone you don't need :( Hate hearing these injections did not do much for you :( Hope your Dr.s can give you some help there.
    15 years old is pretty old to be throwing temper tantrums like a little kid. Is there possibly something going on at his school that might be at the root of it? Any way to sit him down and getting him to tell what is eating him, maybe you and your husband both? Would he talk it out with an older brother perhaps?
    I am glad some nice things happened for you, but not nearly enough!
    Thanks for stopping in to let us know how things are going with you.
    You are tired from all that is going on right now, workload, pain, pain in the butt son, 2 factors being beyond your control, never a good thing ;((
    Take care of yourself!!
    {{{gentle hugs}}}
    Linda
    1833 days ago
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