Friday, November 08, 2013

i went thru my 'goodies' and counted up all the hugs - what a blessing - there are enough to circle me - i feel so loved in this soft welcoming place.
then i looked at all the wonderful plants and sunbeams that are collected in my goodies as well as rainbows - especially from someone with the same call name.
to all of you who have been so caring as to take this time- to talk to me and send me these wonderful momentos - i have to give you so much gratitude.
it is not a small thing when you feel so down, so miserable - then you open up your spark page and see you have something there. it is like Christmas when you were a kid - there is something there you don't know exactly what. you have that anticipation and then you see it - it warms your heart, makes feel so good and maybe brings a tear to my eye.
when i send out a goodie - i know you love it too - it is such a little thing BUT SUCH A HUGE THING - it impacts every one differently.
to me it is priceless - next to hugs, licks and slurps from my critters - HUGE THANKS and love to all of you .
remember - pray for me as i for you also.
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    You are a very special person. emoticon I do love hugs too.
    1984 days ago
    What a beautiful , selfless blog. I too, feel the same way as you. When your spirit is broke & love is sent your way it is invigorating & gives hope to the hopeless.
    You So deserve the love you have received.

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    1986 days ago

    Comment edited on: 11/9/2013 3:21:46 PM
    If life is like a roller coaster, then I hope you are on your way up o emoticon ne of the hills soon.
    1986 days ago
    I have found the support here is wonderful. You opened your heart to everyone and our hearts went out to you. You are not alone on this site - there is always someone ready to give a kind word or maybe some words of wisdom. Keeping you in my prayers and sending extra hugs.

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    1986 days ago
  • EILEEN828
    You know following sparkpeople is very much like getting a hug and I like to use it for that too. I try to fill my life up with things that I like. Watch tv shows that are not harsh, only rarely follow the news. Craft things with my hands. Go to estate sales and such just for the entertainment value alone.

    I need to work on this a bit more and find other things to be a part of so that I don't get so house bound which is a huge component of my life right now. i'm not into the church scene so I wouldn't do that, but there are other ways to socialize. The more you can get out of the situation that binds you down the more normal you feel. It makes you stronger and more able to put offensive behavior back in it's place, which is basically the temper tantrums of an adult child. Every time he puts you down turn it around in your head and make it a complement, it's evidence that you impact him in a way that dominates him and he's scared of you so he fights back by trying to undermine you.

    You said that you've been taking care of everything already that means he is totally needy of you. It also means you're smarter than he is and stronger and more capable. You are also more emotionally secure and therefore self sufficient. I found that book I was telling you about, it is called The Verbally Abusive Man by Patricia Evans. I'm about half way through it and I'm going to finish it now. It will help you to get the big picture overview that you need of yourself because being in this situation by definition makes you feel small and pulled in tight. We tend to lose perspective and that is something that does make him stronger whether he realizes it or not.

    Give yourself a big hug from me and give yourself permission to start elbowing your way back into your own life. He doesn't own you, you know, and you have every right to live, and I mean really LiVE. Keep giving yourself love and pleasure from all the things you like, he can't steal that from you. Another good site that I've visited in the past that really helped for a big boost of confidence and belief in yourself is Sure it's about housekeeping but it's really about how to take control of your life back. Hang in there BB, you're doing it! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1987 days ago
  • TRAMA534
    BB! I have been thinking about you and praying for you since I read your blog yesterday. I have been through a lot during my life and reading your blog tells me that you are a very sweet, caring person, who would not hurt a fly and yet, someone hurts you with their words! It is not fair! This happens to me every so often too. emoticon It really gets me down sometimes, but I know I am a great person and I try to ignore it. I am working on transforming myself and showing them that I am better than they are! BB, keep strong and keep fighting for your selfworth. Try to put up a shield when they use hurtful words, just know that you are better than they are and you are working to get stronger and one day soon, you will shock them with your strength! Let us know how you are and remember we are all in this world together. You are not alone!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1987 days ago
    emoticon prayers on the way for you!
    1987 days ago
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