November Goals: Learn Organic Chemistry :-/ = :-D

Thursday, November 07, 2013

Hopefully my possibly good news turns into actually good news.

I am teaching two more sections of Intro Biology at Lindenwood next year, and today I started talking with another small college called McKendree to teach Chemistry. One would be a General Chemistry lab and one would be an Organic Chemistry lab *gasp*! Someone’s gonna need to relearn Organic ASAP! Then in addition they want me to maybe teach the associated Organic class – again *eeeeep*! It conflicts with my Biology classes though, so until I find out if they can move it, I don’t know if I will teach it.

So instead of only teaching one class like I am this semester for $800 a month *sigh*, I would be making $1600 at Lindenwood + whatever at McKendree = I can finally pay my bills and work on all of the credit card debt I’ve managed to get myself into! I hate not being able to take care of myself financially, it just makes you feel like a worthless adult when you can’t afford to move out on your own. Grad school definitely put me financially behind my friends. I had a few weak moments this month where friends were posting about their brand new cars or giant new homes on Facebook, and it was a rough reality check for me. I do not care about that stuff. I don’t need a new car or a giant house, heck its not even something I would want to brag about ever on FB, but there’s always a voice in the back of your head telling you that you aren’t keeping up with the Joneses.

Fitness wise I haven’t had any excuses not to work out. I’ve been averaging 4 days a week at the gym for good cardio sessions and strength training, and still swimming at least one day a week. I’ve also tried to do more walking during the day and less sitting around.

Food wise I suck, lol. I am trying to do everything right in the gym but then I sabotage myself in the kitchen. PMS + Halloween = I ate a lot of candy bars. I’m not even going to lie about it. I ate A LOT of them. But I’m not going to freak out about it – I’m moving past it and moving on.

I took my measurements yesterday. I am definitely a pear! 36” bust, 31” natural waist, 35” waist where my jeans sit aaaaaaand 45” hips. I’ve got a ghetto booty and I know it! Working out in the gym has made it rise up and get rounder. So even though I’m still having issues with jeans not fitting like they used to, its for different reasons.

I have a bicep now too! I’ve learned more of the machines in the gym so I now have a leg day and an arm day – and I learned swimming breaststroke after arm day is punishment! Leg day is helping the booty and my thighs feel stronger. Oddly enough my ankles have gotten skinny. Even at 300# I didn’t really have cankles since my calf muscles are really large, but now my ankles are getting all tendony and skinny. I wish it was my waist that was shrinking but I guess we can’t be picky, lol.

I somehow have just been avoiding the scale. I’m sticking to avoiding it for awhile I think. I don’t need it to tell me that I’m not doing well with weightloss. I’m getting more muscle so I just don’t want to be discouraged that I’m still over 190 at this point.

So goals for November – get the food under better control and learn Organic chemistry!
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    1554 days ago
    Hey, I can't get past the $800 a month for one class! Our community college pays $1800 per class for the whole SEMESTER!! Shameful how little adjuncts make.
    1630 days ago
    I cried through high school chemistry, never mind organic chem. That pre-requisite is pretty much the only reason I didn't pursue being a dietician/nutritionist. More power to you! And thanks for the nudge in the direction of trying to find a job without succumbing to the lure of grad school and cost-of-living loans emoticon
    We have a very similar situation going on in the gym and with the measurements! emoticon I just started leg and arm days on the machines recently. Those slow squat leg presses REALLY are great on the booty.
    I'm OK if mine is never small, as long as the disparity between waist and hips remains emoticon

    1630 days ago
    hell, i'm 29 & also feel "behind"....especially since I decided to go back to school at 26. I've learnt not to compare myself to others because it really doesn't matter, I wouldn't be any happier if I had a house, kids and car. We've got it good haha!

    I'm a pear too....for sure. damn bum & thighs just don't shrink proportionately thats for sure!

    Congrats on the heightened income, I bet its a relief on financial stresses for sure!

    1630 days ago
    It's official -- I'm teaching organic too now! Two Bio classes and Two chemistry classes -- I'm finally going to be a busy bee!
    1630 days ago
    I hope the job works out well!!!

    I loved orgo. I got so sick of upperclassmen being like "WAIT UNTIL YOU TAKE ORGO IT'S THE END OF THE WORLD" all freshman year... shut up, bitterhead. hahaha. Orgo makes so much SENSE to me, everything has detailed rules, but if you learn them the nomenclature & everything follows the rules. LOGICAL = win.

    I had that same issue/ feeling after grad school of being "behind"... don't let it get to you. The truth is everyone is on a totally different timetable, and how you feel about it depends on your circle of friends & your background. Ultimately you can't worry about it. Just do your thing.

    I know you're feeling crummy about the food thing right now, but don't beat yourself up. I thought of you on Halloween actually - from your page last year when you said you'd rather have a fun sized @$$ than a fun sized candy bar. Hahaha. I used that a couple of times to talk myself out of candy, so thanks!!
    1630 days ago
    Remember this:
    Fitness is 20% exercise and 80% nutrition. You can't outrun/outexercise your fork.
    But you already know that.
    1630 days ago
    So happy that positive things are on the horizon for you! emoticon
    1630 days ago
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