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Tuesday, November 05, 2013

I just reset my counter today to finally accept the fact that I gained back the weight i lost last time, plus a little. When you reset the counter it resets the calorie range also. I dont care what people think,personally I think the weight loss range that SP sets is unrealistic. And probably stupid. So i set my range to a more 'do-able' range because I cant see myself staying under 1500 cal a day, esp if i exercise. I heard time and again other people who have been successful with this, and I have also. So I might only lose 1# a week, so what? I didnt gain it that fast. But the sad reality of it is, even with resetting to 'my' range, I still dont have allowance for a cookie now. And Im sad. Because I think that cookie (oh who am I kidding-cookies) would make me happy. I find that feeling attached to it and its 'joy'. That stupid saying ' nothing tastes as good as being thin feels'? Not me. Thats bunk in my mind. I find no joy in being thin. I know that I will not be able to lose weight for good if I cant find proper motivation, like healthy motivation. Just for looks-tried that. Makes no dam difference in my life. Dont care. Much. I guess I care what my girlfriends think but not that much, cuz face it, we all think about ourselves too much to really care what other people are doing. I do hope to find joy in being fit. When I wear my workout pants I look thinner and my daughter said ' oh mommy you lost weight- Im so happy cuz you are the mom I always hoped i would have' or something like that. And it touched me. It also horrified me. It motivated me to want to try harder, so I can be the kind of mom that she can show off. or at least not be embarrassed by because Im fat, god knows every 12 year old girls is embarrassed enough by their parents for SOMEthing. I could be fit, but if I still have stupid clothes then, well forget it, LOL.
Im trying to be positive, Im really trying. emoticon
Fake it til you make it, I guess. C25K D1 done yesterday (sortof long story my daughter went with me then 'twisted her ankle' 1/2 way through so I made her sit it out, ugh, whatever I love that shes willing to spend time with me at all so overall win-win. No she was not actually injured.) C25k D2 tomorrow and have been doing 'conditioning exercises' nightly with my daughter for her cheer.
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    It's all about finding out what you can do for the rest of your life. Sparks isn't setting your calorie range...you are choosing to use what they recommend. If it doesn't work for you, change it to what does. I've come to realize that exercise is getting to my target heart rate for 30 minutes or more and walking at less than 3 mph doesn't do that. But it took me a while to commit to even walking at all, so I'm moving in the right direction. When I look over my tracked food, I see that I go over my range more than under it but again, at least I'm aware of how much I'm eating. Find the joy in making small changes. emoticon
    1661 days ago
    I, too, struggle with the ranges provided by SP. I mean, how am I supposed to hit all the minimums for things like protein and fiber and only eat 1200 Calories? It leaves very little room for error and makes me feel confined. Plus, I notice that when I eat that little and exercising, I just don't feel quite right. I think it actually slows my metabolism down.

    Anyway, I think it's great that you're doing what works for you and still going at it. Motivation comes in a lot of forms and can change, so just keep checking in with yourself and focusing on what makes you feel good.

    I'm trying to master the art of eating the cookie and not cookies. Just a taste and then leaving it be. It's harder than it sounds, but I really do think that balance is the key. Now to figure out how the heck to achieve it...

    1661 days ago
    I'm using the calorie range SP set for me. I'm over about half the time right now, but I can see where it's my bad that i'm over. Eating too many sandwiches for example, or eating rice or pasta with dinner and then going over to try and fit some fruits and veggies in as a snack.

    So far i'm doing fine, the limit SP has set for me is so much better than what I was doing previously that I've had a great first few weeks. I know the 4 pounds a week losses are going to disappear soon, and I know I am going to be disappointed with the 1-2 that is going to start happening, but it's time to be realistic. I also know that I could keep within my range if I planned my days at all, I don't plan my meals, I just eat whatever and then track it after. I managed to fit a Tim horton's cookie into my range just a few days ago, but yesterday I ate one and I was way over my range for the day. It's a work in Progress.
    1661 days ago
    I eat at the top of my range, but I also burn more calories per week than the Spark Plan says I should (compensation?).

    One day a week, maybe you could allow yourself ONE cookie, as a reward for your hard work all week...unless it will be one of those instances where you can't stop at one and you end up sabotaging yourself...

    My daughter and son are both fantastic motivators. Both of them have said to me that they want to be like me when I grow up, they are proud of me, etc. It is also a huge feeling of responsibility. They are always watching. I can't just sit and eat cookies and watch TV, they will see that, and what will they learn from it? We try to incorporate healthy activity into family activities and make it fun for everyone. I think it is great that you took your daughter along to run. It will show her your strength and her own. My son has run a handful of 5Ks with us, and I love that he wants to get out there and try!

    Sorry about the cookie, you will get there though! Keep at it!

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    1661 days ago
  • KITT52
    I agree I set my own calorie range....

    this is a life long journey, take it one day at a time...sometimes it's one meal at a time

    have a healthy day
    1661 days ago
  • CIPHER1971
    You can do this, I came 'back' about 2 weeks ago, and I too tend to eat at the top of my range emoticon and we will get there, it will just take a little time.

    All the best
    1661 days ago
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