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Tuesday, November 05, 2013

I just need to say where I am and note all this change in my life. I need to catch my breath.

I was away at a conference all last week. *That* was a challenge! I tracked well, but had not so much control and after 5 days I was very glad to get home. Meanwhile, my older son returned from a trip, got home a day before I did, and prepared to leave for basic training -- which he did yesterday. I dropped him off. Of course it's good for him to go, but my heart breaks. He came home from a year abroad last December in not such good shape and with little direction. I tried to provide support while he found his way (I also set expectations). He did, in fact, take giant steps to maturity and determined his own path. And in the middle of his father's announcement that he was leaving.

My son and I went to church Sunday and that was lovely. Our priest gave him an icon of St. Michael and thanked him for his service at the altar. We spent time on Sunday and I took him to the station yesterday morning -not sure when I'll see him next. He's going to Ft. Sill and then off to the Defense Language Institute, Monterey, where he will be for about a year. After that, more training as a specialist.

So now its me and the dogs ....I need to take care of myself!!! I look forward to this -- but I am having some trouble eating more and I am forcing myself to track. I am tired. I have walked alot more but this is not at a target level.

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    You and your son both have your challenges. Good for you both to pull from your spirituality the extra boost needed to pull yourselves through!

    1658 days ago
    My goodness you have been through so much in such a short time. Make time for yourself to reflect on all you have managed to accomplish whenever the task ahead seems too daunting. YOU can do this!
    1660 days ago
    Of course you are tired. With all you've gone through on the home front: the comings, the goings, the going again...gesh!

    Take some time off and don't worry so much about the future or being on program. There is a grief process going on my dear and you are just at the beginning of it.

    Please keep us posted and know we are here supporting your path.
    1660 days ago
  • 68ANNE
    Glad you can get that off your chest. Hope you feel less alone with us here for you.
    1660 days ago
    I hope your son enjoys his life in the service. I had family members that retired for a life in the military and had great careers. They turned out to be exceptional men. I hope you will concentrate on taking care of you and the dogs now. emoticon
    1660 days ago
    My son has been in the military for 22 years - and now I have a grandson there also. If your son is anything like mine, he will stay connected to you no matter where he goes! So you now have time for yourself. You can take your time thinking through how you want to approach life, what you want to take charge of and what you want to stay open to. My first husband left when my son went into the army, and I gave myself a summer to decide what's next. As it turned out, I decided to stay "open" to the unexpected rather than taking charge of everything. So here I am, 22 years later, with a life I never imagined but enjoy so much. Please call on me for support if you want to!


    1660 days ago
    Well, this is not an experience I know anything about, as I have not had children. Nor do I know much about military training, so I cannot offer any comments in this regard either.

    Congrats for hanging in there - nobody said you had to be perfect.
    1660 days ago
    Not many people know how intelligent you have to be to pass the D-LAB tests and get accepted into the DLI program. Your son will do fine. I hope you'll save up so you can get to Monteray and see the Presidio and congratulations to you both. Please work on finding the difference between being alone and being lonely. The dogs will help A LOT!! Mine are the sunshine of my daze!!
    1660 days ago
    I know you'll miss him, but it will give you more time to focus on you.
    1660 days ago
  • PGHP31CK
    You are making steps in the right direction, which is EXCELLENT, given the amount of change in your life over the past few months!

    Remember, small steps = progress. Each day = new start.

    It takes a very special mom to send her child off to serve his/her country -- you recognize that this is a good thing for him, and you are supporting him, despite your mother-heart. I'm praying that the Lord will send you a huge hug, and keep your son safe while he serves our nation!

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    1660 days ago
  • HEATHER409
    Thank you and your son both for your sacrifices for our freedoms. I'm sorry you've had some troubling times, but it sounds like you are a tough woman and will come out smiling on the other side. I've just recently found my way back to SP, but would like to offer an ear and a shoulder if you ever need to talk. I have the utmost respect for those who serve and for their loved ones who are forced to maintain strength in their absence.
    1660 days ago
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