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Weekend binge

Tuesday, November 05, 2013

So, Halloween happened. And then I went to visit friends in Cleveland for the weekend, where they had a belated Halloween party. I fell off the mainly plant-based wagon. Especially in the dairy department. I gorged on cheesy pizza, ice cream, cake (with frosting, naturally), and of course, lots of Halloween candy. I am feeling it, too...more sluggish, more achy in my joints. I'm also having trouble stopping. I got home yesterday after flying home (flying stresses me out anyway, so that didn't help the situation) and promptly ordered pizza because I didn't feel like cooking.

Why do I self-sabotage? I have no idea. I know I shouldn't do it, I know that it's bad for me, but undoing a lifetime of bad habits means I'll have inevitable slip-ups. Right? Right?

And the thing is, even though I really don't like cheese all that much anymore--it's slimy, it's salty, and I really don't like the flavor or texture of it--I couldn't stop myself from eating it. I don't get it. Now I'm stuck trying to backtrack and detox from all the crap I put in my body over the last few days.

I need to plan ahead and figure out how I need to eat when I travel. I switched to vegetarian the last couple of times I've traveled, and I've allowed myself to make poor decisions within that guideline. LIke the ice cream. Like the cheese. When I have more control over my food--not having to rely on others or restaurants for my meals--I do better. Even when traveling--when we visit the Outer Banks, we are able to bring our own food.

I know what I did wrong, and I know what needs to be done to fix it. However, I'm still in the binge. Perhaps it's because my fiance is on the other side of the world--literally: he's in Hong Kong--and I miss his presence and his ability to keep me in line food-wise. I tend to eat worse when he's not around. Another form of self-sabotage, I realize.

Time to stop. I can do this. I have allowed myself to slip, but it's time to stop the slide and get back on track.
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    Put that foot down! you can do it. I do the same it seems once i have something bad the rest of the day is down hill from there. Keep your head up and I'm sure your fiance will be home soon. He wouldnt want to see you off the wagon either.
    1626 days ago
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