My OMG Moment
Monday, November 04, 2013
Saturday was my birthday. It was a good birthday that I got to spend with my husband and kids. Last week Shane let me go shopping for some clothes. By "let me" I mean he made sure it was in the budget. I have had most of my clothes longer than Shane and I have been together and they are starting to tear up. I found some jeans pretty easily. It was the tops. I got a new sweatshirt and a new hoodie. I know my wardrobe sounds glamorous! Seriously though, I'm a 32 year old stay at home mom. Comfort is the name of the game. So I was looking at tops. I picked up a 2XL which is what I wore when Shane and I got together. I didn't even bother trying it on. I knew it would be way too tight. I ended up needing a 3XL hoodie and a 4XL sweatshirt (because I like my sweatshirts on the loose side). I almost put the tops back so that I didn't have to face the fact of how big I really am. I ended up buying them only because I needed them so bad. I don't want to be a 3/4XL. I can't be a 3/4XL. Not in the long run. I am constantly stressed, tired, my allergies are getting really bad again and my back and shoulder hurt constantly. I know all these issues aren't 100% because of my weight, but I also know that losing weight will help a lot! I have tried to lose weight so many times before. Sometimes I would but then gained it right back. Other times, I would give up before the first day was over. I feel like this is the point though. Either I do what it takes to become healthy or I continue to get bigger and sicker.
So what am I going to do about it? First off, I am going to take it one day at a time. I get so overwhelmed when I look at the big picture. That leads to my failure. So I am looking at today. Tomorrow can wait until tomorrow.
I am going back to eating Primal/Paleo. Eating that way earlier this year, I felt so much better than I ever have. Yes, it is difficult not to eat all the convenience food, but eating those is what led me to this point. Of course, my budget doesn't allow for everything to be organic or grass-fed. I can only do what I can do. But every little bit helps. That is why I prefer Primal over full on Paleo. 80/20 is much more doable than 95/5! Plus, I am not completely giving up dairy. Cut back? Sure. Cut out? No way!
Exercise is something I am working on. We recently got Roku and several channels have exercise videos on them. My plan is, for the time being, just to go through these videos and find what I like. So I might do yoga one day, belly dancing the next and WATP the next. I figure as long as I get up and move, that's what counts at this point!
To keep myself accountable I am going o blog every Monday. Ideally, I would blog everyday, but I can never keep up with that. It ends up feeling like a chore. So Mondays are what I am committing to and anything else is just a bonus. I also am making weekly goals. Nothing major. At least not yet. So here they are. My goals for this week:
1) Follow my menu plan!
2) Drink more water.
3) Exercise before I play WoW.