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Sunday, November 03, 2013

Well, hello and happy November, guys. Can't believe we're almost at the end of yet another year. No idea where time is going. Anyway, just figured I'd write a quick update for the week. I did horrible last week. I didn't exercise and not once did I follow my meal plan. I have excuses, to be sure, but not the absolute best ones except towards the end of the week. I didn't want to exercise because I was just too bloody exhausted from being emotionally charged nonstop all day because I'm trying so hard to not yell and scream and curse at my beyond pathetic excuse for a coworker, let alone throttle her. She is pissing me off so bad. It's seriously getting to the point where it's either she goes or I do because I'm done with it all. I'm tired of her s*** and I'm tired of not getting paid what I'm worth and I'm tired of not being able to be promoted and learn new things. I'm just so beyond sick and tired of doing the same d****d thing every day, every week, every month, every year. So I've been exhausted from that. And then, I think it was Thursday, I woke up with a very bad sore throat. Which meant I was getting sick. Again. So I knew to not really bother because a sore throat that bad and glands that swollen meant something big was coming on. Not even ice cream could dull the pain. And I was right. I'm not quite sure just yet what it's doing, but I can't stop coughing and I am so congested I can barely breathe. I was actually dreaming about being suffocated last night because I couldn't breathe. Needless to say, I'm tired from that, too. I'm so miserable, I can't get comfortable and sleep for more than an hour or two at a time. I'm doing the best I can to fight it. I'm taking it as easy as possible. I asked my husband to do the floors for me today because they need to be done so bad since the dog is shedding and I just don't have the energy to try to do it. I've upped my daily vitamin C, I'm drinking tea sweetened with honey at night, I'm using my netipot twice a day, and I'm taking medicine to help with everything else. I guess if I get too much worse or if I see zero improvement by Thursday, I should probably call a doctor. Not that I want to. They cost too much. So here's hoping I can beat it on my own here soon.

Seeing as it's a new month already, I've taken new monthly measurements and all that jazz. Trying to figure out new ways to help motivate myself, too. I had been thinking maybe I should take a picture of myself every month from the front and from the side and hang it on the fridge with all my monthly measurements on it and a picture of a baby ultrasound with a note that says "You can't have this while you're like this." I don't know, though. And since I'm so sick right now, I don't know how much I'll be able to exercise this month since I don't know how long it will take to get better. So I may hold off on that until next month if I do it at all. I'm still in the debate phase. It seems like a good idea, but at the same time it seems like I'm trying to shame myself further. So I really don't know. Anyway, I'm gonna wrap this up now. I need to get to the store and get food for the week so I can make what I can ahead of time and get back to resting. So, I guess I'll finish off with sharing my shameful measurements of the month with the difference from what I have written down from last month. So, take care, everyone!

Weight: 301 (+0.8) Waist: 52 (+1.5) Hips: 55 (+1) Neck: 16 (0) Chest: 50.5 (+1) Thigh: 31.5 (+0.5) Calf: 20 (0) Forearm: 12.5 (0) Upper Arm: 19 (+0.5) BMI: 51.8 (+0.2) Body Fat: 67.3% (+2.3%)
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    I know that it's hard but you are definitely doing the right thing by resting right now. I've tried changing my desktop background and getting into the picture on the fridge and it mostly just made me feel bad because i was so far away from my goal. What really got my momentum going was some success helped in part by being on a seasonal challenge sparkteam with weekly challenges and weigh ins. Once the pounds started to come off, i started to feel more in control of my weight and like i could actually succeed. The team environment really helped too because i didn't feel as alone in my efforts. Everyone was trying to meet the same goal 5% of body weight, and there were weekly weigh ins plus a competitive component with other teams.
    1661 days ago
    You're right - you need to take care of yourself - not just the coughing and congestion, but the stress that makes you more susceptible to catching the bugs that wander by. Give yourself a break on exercise/nutrition for the time being. Recover completely!
    1662 days ago
    Aw I'm sorry to hear you're feeling so lousy, it sounds like you have a really nasty case of something... well, nasty. I hope you're feeling much better well before Thursday and don't have to see a doctor!

    Get lots of rest and take care of yourself.

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