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Saturday, November 02, 2013

Trying to get my act in gear and get with the SP program again. I tend to take several month long hiatuses, for a variety or pitiful excuses. Yes excuses-get over it! Im not proud of it but at least Im honest.

On the right track today, I cleaned the bathroom floors, I mean really got in there and mopped back behind the toilet and all that. I think its a mixed blessing that the tile we picked out a few years back when we remodeled hides dirt really well-like TOO well. I don't think I had cleaned those floors that well in a long time. Don't hate, its just dust mostly. Anyhow, what do I care what strangers think of my slovenly habits, its clean now and I'M impressed. So there.

I feel like talking about it because its indicative of my state of mind, I procrastinate, I put off, I hoard, all out of depression. I just really don't want to deal with things and if I ignore it wont it go away? Which of course it doesn't, but when I DO deal with it, I feel a lightness inside, like all the work and sweat just makes me feel good all over. And I like that high, so Im more likely to do it again, and so on til my house will be clean again soon. Fridge is on the list for tomorrow and oven BEFORE Turkey Day, because, frankly if I don't I'm probably risking a fire.

And because of my improving state of mind Im feeling more eager to apply myself to fitness again. Or maybe my state of mind has been improving because I stared exercising again recently or just a mix of both, one begets the other. WHATever, I ride this gravy train as long as I can before my enthusiasm wains in the face of life's disappointments. ( ie my husbands put downs and general disagreeableness)

But its the eating that really needs to get reined in, the sweets and the treats and candy oh my! And sleeping, need to get more hours of sleep at night. This equation: sensible eating + exercise + 8hr sleep a night = weight loss. It works every time. I am my own worst enemy; if I don't end up getting discouraged by my husbands bad attitude (which I always do) then I make some progress and get complacent and back slide. Im sick of the vicious cycle but I haven't learned to love myself enough to give it up.

Footnote: If you read my blog and feel the need to criticize my bad attitude, or counsel me on my depression, may I remind you that you choose to read the whole dam thing and 'if you cant say something nice don't say anything at all'. Thanks!
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    1624 days ago
    I give you two thumbs up for recognizing things on your own. That is the first (maybe second..) step in the right direction. :)
    1633 days ago
    Glad to see you back!

    I have been a bit off kilter myself through the month of October and am trying to get myself back on track. I am committing myself to tracking, sparking, sleeping, cooking, moving my body, and sleeping as well.

    You're right...the formula works, but it is so easy to forget that and let things slip...slowly...one thing at a time.

    Best of luck to you as you work toward your goals! Hope to see you on more and see you progress and feel better each day!

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    1633 days ago
    emoticon ... I procrastinate too... mostly because I expect a lot from myself and sometimes I am afraid of failing (or not doing as good as I would like), so by procrastinating I avoid what I feel as a threat ... if I don't do it I can not say I did not do well! I know - it is a very stupid way of thinking...anyhow, I just want to say that baby steps, allowing ourselves to fall but getting back on track and keeping it positive is a great way to success.... You are doing Daphne!

    I find that exercise is my zen medication! It boost my energy -even when I don't want to go, I feel better after (mentally because I am proud of what I accomplished and physically because I get to move it...)

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    Good luck!
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