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Long Dark Tunnel.....But seeing the glimmer of light at the end.

Saturday, November 02, 2013

November 2nd 2013
I am ready to get back on track. I have been off focus far too long. Gained 20 pounds I suppose. I am not bringing the scale back into my life. I have a bad habit of getting caught up in the numbers. This time around I want to try not to get so dang obsessed and self-focused. It's time to finally find balance between healthy and fun. Perhaps the two will merge at some point. I know I need to begin tacking my calories again at some point so I will begin tracking in a couple weeks. For now I am going to get the dang wheat back out of my diet and get the sugar intake lower. I haven't binged in over three months and feel pretty well in hand there so it is going to be good to get some focus back.
The hardest part is going to be that feeling of being a failure. I feel ashamed of letting myself get this heavy again and have been telling myself that at least I'm not 300 again. These are lies that are not helping me get back to a realistic lifestyle. All in all, I have come a long way on my journey over the last three years. I will count the victories and use the stumbles as stepping stones...................

So, here I go!
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    Welcome back.... I haven't been on Spark much lately myself. WE are in the same boat of no scale. Mine went wacky and looks like the Biggest Loser scale jumping all over the place and then landing on 32 pounds NOT.....got new batteries, still the same, no money for a new one, so will have to depend on the occasional dr visit.

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    1686 days ago
    I'm glad to hear you are back!

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    1686 days ago
    Keep moving forward, sweetie. YOU are what the journey is all about. YOU can soooo do this! One day at a time!
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    1687 days ago
    Wonderful to hear your positive, Miss JulieRae! As for the feelings of failure, I get it, but we both know they just get in the way of future success. You're NOT a failure.

    It'll be okay — just hang strong.

    1688 days ago
    Welcome back Julie. emoticon

    You are NOT a failure...get rid of those negative thoughts right away! emoticon

    One day at a time...and one thing at a time...

    You'll be back in the swing of things before you know it!
    1688 days ago
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