Friday, November 01, 2013
This month it isn't about what I will eat, how much I will try to exercise...this month my goal is to FIND MY SMILE.
I found some pictures of me, a long time ago, and I had this smile....that I don't even remember. It was big and radiant and Made my eyes and face shine with , I dunno happiness...This point makes me sad.... For me it isn't all about the weight I have gained from being a mom, there is something deeper, and the weight is just an outward manifestation of that.
With my smile I hope to find that zeal for life I once had. It won't be the same, as I am not same. I have responsibilities and people that depend very heavily on me, but somewhere deep within me, is a smile trying to get out...otherwise I would be just happy being the person I am.
It will take some time, but by the end of the month I expect a smile, one is haven't seen in 14 years!