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Tuesday, October 29, 2013

I have been in a funk for weeks now, as indicated in previous entries. I am starting to feel a little better, more functional, but I am struggling with food so much. It is the time of year that I usually begin falling off the diet wagon. Halloween tends to be a trigger and then all the other holidays follow suit.

I gained a lot of weight over the course of the last week. I cheated last Friday with some beans and chips at a Mexican place. Then Saturday I ate some honeycrisp apples with peanut butter. Then Saturday night into Sunday was a full out binge, filled with candy galore. I weighed myself today and the scale says I've gained seven pounds at this point. I am hoping some of that is mere water weight, but I honestly wouldn't be surprised.

I have been eating so much. It is hard. Even eating low carb, I still feel hungry lately. My body is like revolting against me. I hate it. I just want to get under 200 and stay there, and I've been up and down, but near that goal, for two months. It is frustrating.

I need to start getting more committed. I told myself that I was becoming obsessed, which was true, but I can't just totally throw it to the wind either. That won't help. I need to keep a good, balanced, healthy focus.

I have had two consecutive successful days of eating primal even though I have a constant STRONG desire to eat things that are bad for me. How do people do it?!
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  • GYPSYGOTH
    Is it possible that you're going TOO low-carb and your brain is going a little haywire? (It needs carbs to function properly).
    I am super confused on how an apple and peanut butter is "bad" unless you're choosing PB with lots of added sugar or eating a half a cup of it... sounds like a perfect snack to me!

    This time of year is always hard with all of the temptation surrounding us. Not to mention colder weather making us naturally crave more calories...

    It is hard to find that balance of awareness without obsession. I hope you can get it back.

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    If you are struggling with a very restrictive eating plan, what about moving back towards a whole-food focus with a calorie range goal, which gives you a little bit more freedom? I think any plan that cuts out or prohibits specific foods will probably make you crave those foods. Whereas for me, if I know I can have "some" I do better. (Not that it's not hard to stop!)

    I hope you can find your Spark again!
    1721 days ago
  • PATSYB7
    For me, the more I think about what I can't have, the more I want it. I plan out my eating and space it out so I know another meal is just "around the corner". Hang in there--you can do this.
    Keep Sparking!
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    1721 days ago
  • PROUDNM1987
    The holidays are difficult and I was just thinking about this earlier today!! Thanksgiving is what kind of scares me...but you know what?? I do not limit myself on the food I can have,I just limit my portions.And believe it or not it satisfies me!! If I really want something,I have it..The food tracker really helps me a lot on here too! And if there is a day..like this Friday for instance,which is my dads birthday,and we are going to my parents house for dinner and my mom is the most wonderful cook!!..anyway..I eat light during the day and you better believe I am going to be eating me some cake!! It will be a small piece but it will do the trick!! Best of luck to you and I know emoticon !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
    1721 days ago
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