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Pain and fear

Monday, October 28, 2013

Today was the first day at the clinic at my new job. I woke up fearful... Perhaps it was just the "not knowing". The "not knowing" of if my coworkers will like me, I will perform well, etc. etc. I have done SOOO good with my food today, even through the fear...

When I returned home, I checked my e-mail. My father-in-law e-mailed me and said that my ex-husband will be visiting him for a week. Even though we have been apart for almost 4 years, and our relationship was destroyed by alcoholism and addiction....I still feel a pain in my heart. Odd. I guess I still have unresolved feelings. At least today I can recognize and acknowledge the feelings, and I don't have to eat over them.

Here's hoping I make it through the night without binging!
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  • EJB2801
    It's not odd to feel that pain. It wasn't your choice for those addictions to step into your relationship, and even though things were likely very difficult, you still can expect some grief to linger now and then. Sounds like you are taking steps to manage your own troubles with food issues as well as recognising those feelings. May the start of new friendships brighten your week at your new workplace!
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