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Not a sometime thing

Sunday, October 27, 2013

The ring bell rings at the end of the eighth round. the fight is for 15 rounds. The fighter's body is bloody, sweating, Aching and wanting to stop. As the trainer wipes the blood from the eye he states let me throw the towel in . The fighter stands rolls his shoulders taps his gloves and through his blood soaked mouth guard growls NOOOO i can do this. The bell rings and the fighters take their marks dancing around each other throwing all they have at each other but nothing sticks. But they continue to fight. Do you know why ?

Because :
Determination is not a sometime thing !
Passion is not a sometime thing !
Love is not a sometime thing !
Courage is not a sometime thing 1
Believing in ones self is not a sometime thing !
Persistence is not a sometime thing !
Survival is not a sometime thing !
Fight is not a sometime thing !

These qualities are things that you live everyday you just utilize in a different way. Sometimes though the qualities begin to hurt you more than they help you. I suffer from this and I am not throwing in the towel because to be honest I don't know how. It is not in my make up especially when I know it is just the battle that is difficult. I found the key to weight loss then I found the key to changing my body and now my body has told me I need to dance for a couple of rounds. I have taken some hard body blows lately and it is because of the desire to get where I want to be. I pushed and i pushed hard. And now i have learned to very important things.

One: I have been hiding from my problems in the pain of my workouts. There are some issues that need to be dealt with that have nothing to do with my fitness or health but through my fitness I could leave them problems for a while and be normal if just for that time. Sound familiar yep I traded off food for pain. Not that I regret it I have great thighs or at least they are getting better every day.

Two : sometimes it takes more courage to say I need a break for a bit than it does to push through the pain. This is a life long quest for me not something that will ever stop because I reach some magical number and I forgot that. If i dont slow it down right now eventually my body will just stop me on its on. It needs time right now to center itself recover a bit and not go balls to the wall. I dont compete with anyone but me and I am winning but at the same time loosing because it is all just to much. No matter how much i want it to go back undo all the damage i did over the years I cant but i can make sure that I dont recreate the same mistakes.

Right now I am reeling from a neck shoulder back injury. And I have a reaction to the pool chemicals. It is not a rash per say but more like a chemical burn. I can tell you it is worst than poison ivy though. So the game plan going into November is as follows.

Limit my calories to the low end of my calorie range which is somewhere around 1200 calories ( that is my story and i am sticking to it)
Limit my cardio to 30 minutes on the cycle with a 5 minute cool down.
I will do the circuit instead of weights ( that one hurt emoticon )
I will do before and after stretching ( although you should know there is conflicting reports about this.)
My fitness minutes will not exceed 60 minutes a day. ( bare with me here though I am in recovery remember most days now I do well over 3 hours a day so it will take some time to adjust down. )
One day off from the gym but will do a leisure exercise of some sort.
No swimming till the chemical issue is resolved.

Actually the last one is what got us here to this point. When they told me that this was a reaction from the pool and suggested i stay out of the pool for a bit. I said nope not going to happen because I work out with a lady who needs me to motivate her. Later that night as i laid in bed I thought to myself how crazy that is it physically to do harm to yourself so you can motivate someone else. I dont know a soul that would do that for me. So I called my friend and told her I will come sit beside the pool and keep her company but i cant get in the water. Crazy I know but I really will do just about anything to help another person, now i just have to apply the same to my self. This is not a sometime thing it is the rest of my life.
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    1697 days ago
  • POPSY190
    Those who don't learn from history are doomed to repeat it.
    You are very sensible to ease off for a while and to find a way around your wish to help someone without further damage to yourself. The reaction to the pool chemicals could well be a way your body is telling you that you have pushed yourself beyond reasonable limits.
    All the best for getting into a more balanced and sustainable routine.
    1697 days ago
    Whoa, you just get more and more amazing, Darlene. I'm cheering you on all the way. I imagine that this gearing back will be just about as difficult for you as some of your hardest workouts. At least it would be for me, because it would mean fighting battles in my head. You're doing the right thing and you know it. I'm proud of you!!
    1698 days ago
    Great blog. How hard it is to schedule time for ourselves and then when we do we forget to rest. Take care of yourself. You ara doing so well.
    1699 days ago
    Sorry to hear that you have to take a break from the pool, but happy for you that you are learning to re-balance things. Wishing you all good things!
    1699 days ago
    I am so glad to see this blog post from you. Being able to see this is a big step forward. Sometimes the hardest work is not the physical. So proud of you.
    1699 days ago
    I enjoyed your blog! I hope your injuries don't cause you too much pain! Keep on keeping on!!!

    Have a great week!!!
    1700 days ago
    My guess is your body will thank for for the break.
    Good on you for thinking so much about your pool Buddy!
    1700 days ago
  • WILDKAT781
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    sorry about your reaction to the chemicals...that stinks!
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