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Friday, October 25, 2013

Oh boy, it has been awhile. And I have totally blown a lot of the changes I had been making. I say I lost focus, but in reality it is probably worse than that. I won’t say I have fallen back in to depression, but I am likely spiraling that way.

I am starting feel like I am in the confessional. It has been about a week since I have done any meaningful fitness work. I have not logged food or exercise in awhile. I have not abandoned the site and have been coming on to spin the wheel but I have not done anything else. Not sure what is going on mentally other than right now, I am not feeling like I care about much. I obviously don’t care about my diet or exercise right now.

Somehow I have to pull myself back to the program so to speak. I did do something to my back and that has been bothering me all week so that explains a little why I wasn’t going to the gym. It is on the upswing though and starting to feel better. So I am hoping I may be able to hit the gym tomorrow or Sunday.

This will sound weird, or maybe not. But I have gotten so many compliments and good jobs thrown my way, that it almost makes me wonder if I am ultimately scared to really succeed at this. I know I have bragged about people noticing, but right around the time they started commenting is when I really started to struggle.

Anyway, that is what I am struggling with.
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    Hey there, thank you for sharing your hard time.

    I really relate since I struggle with depression. My food and exercise are on track, but a lot of the time I just want to shut down and hide from life. I have a harder time in the colder months. For me I think I am needing to challenge my negative, self-defeating thoughts.

    I relate to fear of success. Others have gone before us. WE CAN DO THIS. One bite, one glass, one meal, one workout at a time.

    1633 days ago
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    Get it together and get back that all-important focus.
    1638 days ago
    Robin as always thanks. I will look for that at the store this weekend. Hopefully it helps.
    1639 days ago
    Have you ever heard of 5-HTP? They sell it at Costco and at most vitamin sections of other stores. I take one at lunch helps with your serotonin level. I've been dealing with a mild depression too. And I know when I take this regularly it does help. That and I think for me it's back to baby steps. One foot in front of the other, one small lifestyle choice at a time.
    1639 days ago
    I , too , hurt myself, I ended up having to have my knee aspirated. No fun , at all , I tell you. One good thing is that you can , and if you can, move your arms or hands or any part and slowly work up to the old you.. It works, I try using exercises for the disabled. Since really when you are not able to do your exercises, even if it's for just a week or more or less you can be disabled to an extent. The chair exercises really do work. They have quite a few to do here.. So NEVER EVER GIVE UP.. it just takes a few words.. tell yourself you will do something no matter how trivial it may seem. And slowly but surely you will begin to get things done again.. Seriously, we have to start some where when we fall off the path to success.. And when having back problems sometimes it helps to move the arms or other extremities since the back is just not doing all of its job it needs some help.. I know some of you may say "I SAID BACK , not arms legs , etc. Well if you have ever had serious problems and unable to move because of your back you will soon realize that when you can move any part of you its an accomplishment and ultimately in time will make your back feel better.. Just stop if it hurts. and of course always consult your doctor about how little or much you can exercise.. GL emoticon
    1639 days ago

    Comment edited on: 10/25/2013 11:46:55 AM
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