Healthy Weight Challenge
Wednesday, October 23, 2013
WARNING: THIS COULD GET UGLY!
The past few weeks, I've been working semi-hard to get back on track and lose this weight, but not truly dedicating myself to the process. I guess I wasn't properly motivated.
This is my third SP try and I've had A LOT of success my two previous go-rounds only to put all or most of the weight back on, much to my chagrin.
Last time was about a year and a half ago and I remember how hard it was to just "GET STARTED". And I swore to myself, "Never again!". It was just too difficult.
Well, here I am.
I know how many pounds I've regained.
I had to shop for new clothes to wear on my trip to Arizona last weekend, which was extremely painful.
I've seen myself in a full length mirror, front and back. God, if that wasn't a FRIGHT!
But today was it! All those things I mentioned above didn't move me like today did. Today was the big epiphany -- the final motivator.
What's so special about today?
I'll tell you what's so special!
I just got home from the gym and I am thoroughly and completely pissed off and disgusted with myself!
I've run in 5Ks.
I've ridden my bike 26 miles in a single ride.
Less than a year ago, I could jog 7 miles. It wasn't fast, but I could do it!
Nowhere near it. I am beyond out of shape!
Started my strength training circuit. I made sure the weights were REALLY light so as to not injure myself and I wanted to make sure I could do the cardio in between stations. Oh, my GOD! That circuit was the longest 30 minutes of my life! By the time I was finished, I was really beat. But, I did finish; so, I'll at least give myself a pat on the back for hanging in.
From there, I went to the mini-elliptical (all legs, no arms, AND no resistance). I could BARELY manage 5 minutes. Last year at this time, knocking out 60 minutes on the real deal, with resistance, was commonplace for me.
After my 5 minutes on the mini-elliptical torture device, I decided to try the treadmill. Well, let me tell you, after the ST circuit and the mini-ETD, I had to really scale back the treadmill. I used to be about walk almost 4 mph, with some jogging thrown in for good measure, for 60 minutes. Today? I cranked out 30 minutes, with of speed of 3 mph. Such a disappointment for me!
I am so, so angry with myself. And disappointed, too. I don't even have the words to express those feelings adequately here.
But I KNOW this: Every time I do this, I am amazed at how quickly and beautifully this body that I've so abused responds to proper care. I also know that I can't keep doing this because my luck's going to run out! My body deserves soooo much better, so:
I WILL NOT QUIT!
I WILL NOT GIVE UP!
I WILL GET BACK TO WHERE I WAS A YEAR AGO!
I WILL MOVE AHEAD AND BEYOND!
I WILL REACH MY HEALTHY WEIGHT!
I WILL MAINTAIN IT THIS TIME!
THERE WILL BE NO OBSTACLE LARGE ENOUGH OR STRONG ENOUGH TO STOP ME!
I CAN AND I WILL SUCCEED!