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Help Me Please -- fear and remorse won't do anything good

Wednesday, October 23, 2013

I maintained for a YEAR! Up and down 4lbs or so but stayed 155 for a year. (after losing 80-90)
F O O D these past months. Really since I left my old apartment - my known home, the place where all my good habits were formed. I was more able to transport my good habits while sharing house with others...though snacking and traveling brought back bad habits.

Bad habits like?
Don't eat standing up!
Eat regular meals 3 plus a snack.
Drink Lots of Water.
Move your body regularly.
Eat socially.
Don't eat your feelings or for comfort.

Well... guys... As I reported recently... I gained 10lbs since coming back to Chicago -- sept 15 154 to 164 again today.

I've had a couple of "good food days" but then a big dinner, or late night eating, or alcohol that cancelled those out. (WE ALL KNOW THIS ROUTINE!!!) crap. oh. Oohhhhhhh.

Do differently if I want different results.
Right. Right. Yeessss. That's right.

So-- What did I do?
I spent the last half hour -- weighing myself... looking for a bold place to put the scale where I'll see it????? more??? Is that right? Rearranging the kitchen.... puting a motivation talisman on the fridge.

What can I do? How about a NEW MOTIVATION BOARD? Or bring out the old ones?
Maybe a new one is needed?

I want my thinner body. I want to explore it. I like the way it feels.

Any friends and support welcome. I'm a lot alone here htese days. I have a lot of lost feelings and want comfort. I will look for it not in food.

DOWNWARD in the good ways?

I love you all.

10/25/12 155
10/29/12 156
11/29/12 148.2 LOW
12/20/12 153
12/30/12 155.2
1/4/13 154.8
1/11/13 156
1/13/13 154.8
1/31/13 155.4
2/18/13 155
2/28/13 153.8
3/19/13 155 maintain
3/25/13 153.8
3/26/13 157.4
4/2/13 159.2
4/5/13 158
4/7/13 157.2
4/11/13 156.8
4/22/13 154 maintain
4/27/13 152
10/13/13 162 GAIN Summer 150-160 down then up
10/16/13 160.6 CHICAGO 153-164 UP UP UP
10/23/13 164

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    PS I just read the book '100 days of weight loss' by Linda Spangle and enjoyed it so much that I took over a flailing team based on the book. I re-organised it and a group of us is now using the book and the team to work on healthy habits and/or weight loss for 100 days. And having fun. If you like you're very welcome to join. The book offers daily motivational texts and assignments most of which you can do regardless of what diet or method you use.
    The team is here: http://www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/
    1703 days ago

    Comment edited on: 10/25/2013 6:33:02 AM
    Ijust added you as a friend. Indeed remorse and guilt don't help. So remind yourself of how far you've come! Wow, you really have great accomplishments to be proud of.
    1703 days ago
    It can be frustrating, but the fact that you are here, posting, is a great sign! And IMHO every fresh start is a good thing because it means new energy and new commitment. So, just keeping putting one foot in front of the other.... Step by step, 10 minutes at a time, that's how we get there.
    1704 days ago
    Aw Sweetie ... breath and find your inner peace, your strength.
    Let go of the negative ... search out the positive.
    Feel the emotion.
    Eat for fuel.
    Find your happy.
    Relax ... maybe with a hot cup of tea.

    I'm there with you ... in spirit and on that sliding scale. Up, down, up, up, down ... it's madness and it's uncomfortable. Yet ... we manage to make it to another day, another minute.

    Find a release ... a physical release that will allow you to let go. Cry? Scream? Dance? Something ... to just let go.

    We're here ... with you!
    1705 days ago
    Paula you have inspired ME so now it is time for you to relax and know you got this. Breaaaaaathe........(easy to say) reward yourself with a professional massage...expensive but take it out of food/drink money! Sometimes there are specials or couponsor a school with student rates....will help you relax and get in touch with your body....let go. (siiiiiiiigh) I am SO proud of you for all you have accomplished....hold your head up high. emoticon emoticon
    1705 days ago
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