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Hello Fat Ass Reflection, I am sick of looking at your face!!

Tuesday, October 22, 2013

So I was walking out of the airport last night after work and caught a glimpse of myself in the Champs Bar/Restaurant Windows....great reflection at night when the lights are turned off.....I looked like Violet in her Blueberry know in Willie Wonka? Girl blows up like a giant blueberry and the oompa loompa have to roll her out to be juiced! Although I wasn't purple, I was red with anger!! At that exact moment I thought of my habit of using the very first stall in the public restroom so that I don't have to look at myself in the mirror coming out of the stall....Yes I do wash my hands, but I don't dare look into the mirror until I have successfully hidden my fat stomach under the sink ledge ;) So then my mind starts to wonder onto what else do I do to avoid the acknowledgment of my ever expanding waistline? Oh I only by shirts that I think cover my stomach but in reality, it is beginning to look like there isn't a shirt manufactured that length, I make sure my shirt isn't tucked into my seatbelt.....I love my hoodies because they fit nicely over my stomach.....UGH every answer is sick....I need to stop this madness. I want my outside to match my beautiful inside, I want to stop feeling anger when I know I am eating something that isn't good for me but just can't stop....Remember that crazy lady in the early 90's...STOP THE MADNESS! Yep I want to be like her!! So here I go, I just used 10 of my 39 points for breakfast, eating Caramel Apple Bread toasted with honey butter.....Yes not the healthiest but for some crazy reason my motivation peaked after eating my breakfast......First blog before starting my first journey to the goal of 5 lbs by Halloween....I will blog as often as I can, I will be brutal to myself and the fight, and I will stay true to anyone that cares to follow....
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    I can relate - I have a mental image of myself at a much lower weight, and sometimes when I really look at myself it catches me off guard that I look the way I do.

    Let's both stop the madness.
    1643 days ago
    emoticon I could have written this blog myself. We can do this!
    1643 days ago
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