DEPRESSION REALLY STINKS!!
Sunday, October 20, 2013
For the past couple of months I have known that things weren't right, but last weekend things hit the fan. Depression kicked with a kick to the gut and it knocked me for a loop! Didn't want to get out of bed, didn't want to get dressed, had to push myself to exercise, and had no real appetite.
This was my DD's favorite time of year from a couple of weeks before Halloween to mid-January. She even went trick or treating when she was 17. She and a friend dressed up, went out and then donated all the candy they had gotten to a local Kiwanis Halloween Party. From that point on each holiday meant spending time with family which was very important to her. She would even keep the Christmas tree up until mid-January watering it daily so that it wouldn't dry out. I miss her terribly. Last year was the first time in 8 years that we had a Christmas tree and it felt wonderful. But sometimes, things don't work out the way you hope especially with depression.
So I talked with my best Spark Buddy Diane and talked. Each night she called and we talked. It helped, but I needed to figure some things out. So I sat down and started to journal. I created a pledge to myself, worked out some long-term goals, and I created a 3-part plan for weight-loss, exercise, and most importantly wellbeing. The pledge and wellbeing parts were the hardest to figure. They had to be realistic and attainable.
I began Friday and things are getting better. Reading all the goodies that teammates and friends sent as well as the comments on my SparkPage was the best medicine a person could ask for. I am still taking things 1 day at a time and keeping busy. I have even started working on some Christmas projects. Imagine that.