Sunday, October 20, 2013
Greetings all! Wow, when I stop to actually count days, I am floored that it has only been two weeks today that my mom has been 'home' (i.e. with me) Somehow that doesn't really explain why I haven't stuck to my workouts in 2 months, does it? FINALLY got a day off yesterday!! Sista came and 'momma sat' so Hubs and I could get out of town for the afternoon. Did my usual 'shopping for the life I don't have' fantasy life and stocked up on fuzzy p.j.'s for my mom (She has lost so much weight, nothing is fitting). I obsessed all night over a ridiculously un needed pair of stiletto's I saw, and don't you know, hubby of my dreams volunteered to go back and do the 2 hour round trip to get them for me today. God, I love that man!
HOPING that today I get it gear and restart. Forced myself to weigh in yesterday at 155.8.....but my winter plan to wear leggings in boots (and I'd stocked up) left me bummed. My thighs felt SO fat as the muscle tone switched to blubber lately. (Probably wasnt noticable to anyone but me, but still....) I'd been all excited and proud for a while there that I could get my thigh circumference inside my two hands.....definately not now! Eek.
The stress level thing is still weighing on me a bit. Thinking about taking my mom off the 'home health care' therapy plan. The home health agency is making me insane, insisting that they have to call at 8am (or earlier) to set appts for the same day they plan to come. Stupid as it sounds, we are late night people. Having to spring out of bed to prod my mom out of bed for an appt in an hour or two's time, is a nightmare and frankly, throws off my digestion for the day! haha (Sad but true and annoys me to no end). Friday this happened with the speech therapist we have yet to see.....she called repeatedly for directions. (We are easy to find) then would not return my calls after 2 horus late and her office called tos ay she couldn't find us and had moved on to her next appt. I had moved heaven and earth to get my mom up and ready for her visit. I was not amused. The rehab/nursing home she was in is right around the corner...thinking doing her therapy as an outpatient there with SET appt times I can control would be less stressful. I had a word with the home health agency about my ire.....and they claim they will make afternoon appts a day in advance from now on but I am not hopeful. It is impossible to explain, without sounding like a total lazy bum, that we do not start our day (Mom and I) at normal business hours!!
My local sis is lookin gworse and worse and due to go out of town to see a specialist. I do not have a good feeling about where it is headed. She is skelatal and weak and emotional. Not sure how I can help her with mom on my hands but I fear if she gets further bad news, she will intentionally 'check out'. STILL....what can one do when they are doing all they can for loved ones, ya know? SIGH.
I guess 'one' could work out! hah I pray you are all well and healthy and enjoyiing a beautiful fall. Moxy, thinking of you and your family as well everyday. and sending prayers.