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I am beginning to understand "maintenance"

Sunday, October 20, 2013

I guess the light bulb finally clicked in my head.

My wonderful husband bought a HUGE ginormous bag of Halloween candy on October 1st, expecting it to be there UNOPENED on October 31st. HA! The "good stuff" too! Snickers and Twix! (don't care too much for the 3 Musketeers or Milky Way). A couple of days after he bought it, I found myself back to my old tricks... cutting a very thin slit into the bag and sneaking a few out every day or so... or a couple of times a day, LOL! And then putting the bag back exactly where he had it up on top of the cabinets so he wouldn't get suspicious. I was hiding the wrappers in the trash so he (or the boys) wouldn't know. Well, by mid OCT it was getting obvious the bag was shrinking. I contemplated doing what the OLD me would do... go and buy another bag exactly like it and replace it so I wouldn't be "found out".

Then it hit me like a ton of bricks.... I DON'T NEED TO ACT LIKE THAT!!!!!! I am 40 years old. I am at a healthy weight and have been maintaining it (for the most part) for 3 and a half years now. I am extremely faithful to exercise. I don't drink sodas, eat fast food, drink alcohol.... and my 3 meals of the day are healthy.

If I want a few pieces of candy every now and again, then SO BE IT! I do not need to be ashamed of it or do I need to hide it. I have absolutely nothing to be embarrassed about. I am not going to hide anything any more!

WOW! That feels so free-ing to finally realize this!!!!

Hubby DID discover the opened bag of candy and "grilled" me about it, just like I feared.... but I stood up for myself and told him exactly what I felt and that was the end of that! I didn't feel bad or shamed at all!

A follow-up to my last blog.... I asked my trainer why he gave them MY name when it was an article for "The Senior Living" section of the paper and he said the newspaper folks felt it would give them "the most exposure"... The reporter asked for names of people "whose lives had been changed the most by CrossFit"... YEP! Def. ME! He said I was the first name that came to his mind. The other 2 names he gave were people younger than me. I can't wait to see the article. Of course, NOW, I am coming up with AWESOME quotes of things I should have said, lol... Oh well!

WOW! I weighted in at 135 this morning! The lowest I have been in awhile. And that is with having a few cookies last night. I am trying to reach my goal of a 125-130 MX range.... slowly but surely. I am going to go out and run this morning for the first time in a few weeks. Praying my heel doesn't act up. I got some "Superfeet" insoles that have been making my feet feel pretty amazing when I walk in them so hopefully they will do the same when I run. Just nobody tell my physical therapist, OK????

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    I wouldn't be able to resist a bag of candy, just sitting there, staring at me, for days on end. I actually don't buy Halloween candy, and turn off the lights and pretend not to be home on Halloween just so I don't have to have candy in the house. It's probably not the best solution for everyone, but it works for me.

    And you're right - you're allowed to eat candy if you want to; you certainly shouldn't have to hide it. The more important thing is making sure you don't over-do it. Maybe by allowing yourself those few treats a day, it might be easier to avoid binging in the long term.
    1642 days ago
    What a great breakthrough for you! Very proud of you. Way to go! Way to control foodIinstead of it controlling you! Very proud.

    1644 days ago
    What a great breakthrough for you! Very proud of you. Way to go! Way to control foodIinstead of it controlling you! Very proud.

    1644 days ago
  • FRECKS96
    Woo Hoo!! You have empowered yourself with great results! Keep it up girl!
    1644 days ago
  • JLITT62
    Letting go of guilt . . . something I still struggle with but it's so important. Now just don't reap ward yourself with candy. ;)
    1644 days ago
    The peanut butter cups....those are my downfall. Snickers too. Oh and I do like the 3 musketeer's too...oh heck. Forget it. I wait to buy candy Oct. 30th! Baaaahaaaa!
    1645 days ago
    The funniest thing- I didn't like candy when I was a kid really. I would go trick or treating but really just to dress up. When I got home, I picked out the Reese's peanut butter cups and the EXTREMELY RARE Hershey's mini dark chocolate, and took the rest to school and gave it to my friends.

    I like candy a LOT more now than I did when I was 7!!!!!!!!!!! Weird!
    1645 days ago
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